Why Dun U Tell Me Where It Hurts Now Baby..And I Do My Best To Make It Better.

2010-01-10T05:56:00.003+08:00

2010 have arrived .. Will this year be a better year for me? i never dare to dream anything special this year. It have started off with a bad start off. Am i ready to go thru this hard period by myself?? i knew i need to seek help for my condition yet i have been avoiding ever since my sec days. Going thru this period definately going be a tought time for me. i knew i need to leave this place and get myself well again.but i might not be able to go thru all myself till i am well. I wish he can be with me. but i know it will be impossible yet i longer it badly. it's been a year plus ever since i started to fall for him. Tried many ways just to forget him. Including my partner. i knew i have hurt alot of ppl during this period and i am truly sorry. with my health condition, i can't help or control myself. I knew i need medication yet i don't want face the reality. it was a cruel reality and i hate it.

And here i am at Aranda COuntry Club with NUS having their chalet. HE came and he jus bright up my smile. was in the room tgt with him viewing youtube was jus like those moments i jus to spend with him. so much memories. I wish times stay but i know gd memories don't last.

GOD pls tell me a reason. i need strength more for this year.

2009-12-28T13:39:00.002+08:00

It's been like ages ever since u have updated my poor blog..so i decided to write something before i say goodbye to 2009.

As a conclusion , life isn't that great for me for 2009. More downs than ups happen for me throughout the whole year. Graduated my diploma and higher nitec in march. Found a full time job in May. Working at Kidz Pediatric Occuptional therapy Center. Pay way below the range i asked..Therefore struggling so much due to so less pay..Started paying everything on my own, of course not gonna be enough. Can't work another job anot.. Cause contract say so. Haiz..It just sux. It wasn't that great working over thr. Doesn't feel happy at all. Going to work means gg to a war. Haiz. It just sux.

Dancing?? it wasn't that too good too.. Started my partnership with benji in dec 2008..ended in aug 2009..competed 3 comps together. Felt hopeless, restless, lifeless without a partner. Haiz.. But i was lucky to found a good partner in Oct. It was great to be competing again..but doing purely standard. It wasn't that bad too. Cause i simply in love with standard. COmpeted 1st comp tgt in dec 13 with great result. 3 gold 1 silver. After the comp partnership went wrong.. Broke up partnership. Dreams been shattered again. Too tired dancing. Feels like giving up. everyone asking me why i wanna give up when dance is such a big part of my life. But it wasn't that great too.. But after some matter, ronghua wants to partner back. But it felt that something is missing. No longer the excitment as before. But i will still try my best. Then i join NUS SnB performance team. Performing Jive on 28 Jan at Zicra with the invitation from SMU. it was great. Meet alot of new friends.

Birthday is over, 21st?? I dun wanna remember such day. It was horrible.. 21st supposed to be something memorable but i guess i have nth to remember. i miss my 20th birthday celebration alot. Celebrated with Piglet, tiara, freeman.. short and sweet celebration. One word, GREAT. Xmas kinda "fun"??? practising my jive for ther performance at TPJC?? for Xmas eve and Xmas?? Oh my god...i realli dun have life man.. WOrk, School, dance..nth else..it jus sux.

I jus hope that 2010 will be a better year for me. WIll update once more before i farewell goodbye to 2009.

Ciao~!!!

2009-09-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

Time waits for no one that's why i cherish time. But things seems to be always going against me. 2 Years back, or should i say 5 years back, i knew jiaqi and tat's when i fall for him. It was sweet and memorable. But things started to change because of my character. I changed and i still lose him. And here i am history repeating again. Too emotional to handle such issue again. No more elaboration.

I rather don't know u at all in the first place.
I rather don't wanna have those sweet memories at all
I rather been sad than happy.
Cause i can't take it any longer.

You gave me hope
You taught me what's all life about
You changed me for a better person
And You gave me scar that leaves 4ever.

2009-09-06T23:30:00.002+08:00

Woosh...past week was stressful but had a meaning full week after all. ballet class was fun. but sch was not fun. Rushing for assignment like madness..seriously madness.Left 3 more weeks to complete the whole assignment. Topic is Facilities Management & event & convention management. Seriously a wide topic and details of researching need to be done. Wonder how am going to cope with it till it ends. And guess was i am to change my elective module. From sports & leisure management to casino management. Haiz...

Oh ya. Been busy with housework and topping up of groceries. Riding bicycle to admiratly with full of food and back to home and then to ntuc to buy more stuff.Mopping of floor, washing dishes. washing clothes etc.

Sat was like madness. went for peter jazz class.realise that my body is so stiff.need to work harder tog et back my flexiblity.Class was overall great jus that i didn't bring water along and didn't eat anything so was kinda thirsty and hungry.

Night was great, went to studio for pass some stuff back to benji and dinner with genevieve and terence at Out of the Pan. Food wasn't that good the day..haiz... then off we go for some jap dessert and off i go to airport to fetch dad, mum and sis.

And for today went for John & Josephine competition.Tickets was expensive lor. $60 for day event. But was worth watching. lunch was only at 430pm which concludes my dinner also. then off to buy kenny's present. HoHo... pictures will be up soon...

Stay tune...
=]

2009-08-31T00:41:00.002+08:00

Had a great day today..Enjoying myself.. Celebrated Kenny's advance birthday at my house with steamboat session.. It is nice to have such gathering with close friend..Came Sotong, Zijian and kenny..4 friends together..Nice feeling..

Poundering over some things over the past 3 weeks. Ever since after the 1 Aug competition, i find myself very lost..no sense of direction. easily threw temper.. guess it is also part because of bother parents fly back to myanamr. Feel lonely within me. No more dance committment for me..putting weight abit.

Seriously i don't know what's lies for my future ahead. The dream i have..the career i longed to have, the friends i cherish alot.be a SQ girl, an outstanding dancer, a passionate kayaking coach, a warmth and happy family, a group of crap and understanding friends, and also someone who i love and walk the rest of my life.

over the past 3 weeks, i am really tired. I am trying hard to be a happy girl, i failed to do so. So many regrets in my life.i failed. How long can i hold on more.

2009-08-10T22:56:00.004+08:00

Gonna be 2 mths ever since i update this blog of mine. Dragging and forcing myself in front of the com to write something out of it. i spend 2 full hours writing it okie..Better read it till end. And here i go.

Past 2 months it has been a real tough months for me. Everything happens. Bad & good. The last thing i ever write was regarding about my work which realli seems to be tiring and hurting to go through. But i guess nw, it's realli a challanging period for me. And here i am still surving. So just to conlude about work. Not bad. 70% happy ME~!! new system. new equipments. Rules by my principle =]

What about school?? rushing like a mad woman over assignment to be completed and exams to study. Think i am gg to do badly for my innovation module.haiz..Luckily that's just the internal exams onli.Praying hard for the last paper which is on the 27 aug for the UK exam. That paper no matter what must pass and praying to pass wiht flying colours. So have to study HARD!!!

Let's talk about dance. Went to Batu Pahut for competition in August. Took part in Grade C latin. Won 4th. Happy with the result. Great start off as a first Grade C event. 2 day 1 night event. It was great as a over all.Below are the pics took for the com.Took with Janet and michael. Oh my god. MIchael looks damn HOT~!

Picture of michael during Asia pacfic Dancesport Championship

Why is his eyes closed..haiz..Batu Pahut 2009

Searching back the pic i took with last year Batu Pahut competition. After that will be the Asia pacific dancesport championship/ 8th Singapore open dancesports championship. Took part with Benjamin for Grade E Waltz and Grade C Latin.Won 2nd of grade E waltz. But latin manage to get into 2nd round onli.haiz.. And that's marks the end of our partnership. It's realli turn nasty during the break. It neve happen b4 with Taz partnership.. And it really shocks me and disappointed. Not gonna bitch over here. As i don't wanna remember about it.

Pictures of us during our last competition together.

New Friends & old friends i made during the com

Words for my ex partner:

We may ended our parthnership. But it has been a great 9 months partnering together.Going through ups and down together. Real hardship, real improvenment together. =] I never regret partnering you but i guess when things and character don't works out, things have to stop in order for us both to progress. And that's what we have decided too. Let's just hope each other with best wishes and not doing anything underhand.

Memories of Batu Pahut competition

hmm..so i guess now i will be stop doing dancesport competitive at the moment. Perhaps just taking standard class at laoshi there and focus on my ballet and some class under Peter. I tink i am satisifed with the life right now. As i have been working for almost 4 mths and getting my 4th mth pay end of this month, i was wondering where has all my money gone to?? as i didn't save a single cents each mth. That's sound really badly right.School fees, transportation, food has already cost me about $620. Which means i have been spending the rest of my pay on dance!!! which includes lesson and costume. Can u believe it?? i am spending too much on dance..that's doesn't sound so healthy at all. So i have decided to take a real good break from competitive dancing and re-plan my budget every month again.

Gonna buy some stuff for my house and dad!! time to be filial daughter. As mum have went back to Myanmar now to settle some house matter and sister engagement, i have to do housework as usual.haiz. Sister is engaging at Sedona Hotel in Myanmar. 6* hotel..cool ah..but too bad i can't go..haiz...nvm..save money.

Made some plans ahead for myself that i wanna do:
-To get my PADI open water diver certi.
-To pass my assessment for kayaking
-To buy and do present for 2 beloved frens birthday
-To take up jap course
-Army half marathon with better timing.

Think these are the few main top piority right nw.
Pink ribbon run.. http://www.pinkribbonsingapore.com/
President challange run http://www.runsingapore.com/
Any Kaiki??? tag my blog..

2009-06-17T01:26:00.002+08:00

It feels so hurt. Never in my life i have cried while working. And i cried today. Working full time in the society is so different. Feeling hurt when u are back stab after jus a mth at work. So stressful. So unhappy. Everything is jus a routine. Or should i say everyday is jus a routine.

I jus wanna be happy.
I guess i am really worn out with my life.
I tried to smile but i failed.

2009-06-09T01:48:00.002+08:00

i jus feel worn out after so much things happen for the past 1 mth..
i am jus feeling tired..
But i still have to hold on till i no longer able to take it..

For the past 6 mths, i am jus a fool

2009-05-17T23:26:00.004+08:00

Started on my full time job on 11 May. Finally a stable income after 2 mths of job hunting. First few days of work really bored. When everything was throw at me to learn. Good enough my colleagues were there to teach me. But guess i can't click with them. And also becos i can't keep still.

Busy life started for me. Is it a good sign or bad sign? everyday after work those are things i do:
Mon - meet up for dinner with tiara
Tue - ballet class then headed with jie shi to see peter's jazz class
Wed - samba private class for show dance performance
Thurs - rest day
Fri - practise samba with yiling and yeoming
Sat - Pick up race pack, down for blood donation but failed due to low blood pressure (tried 2 years back due to need medical letter,2nd time underweight and today is 3rd time failed again) work at 1pm den dance at 7pm
Sun - full day kayaking

Life is starting to get packed up. But not fully packed. I wants a life that is fully packed. Life seems to be abit slow for me. I WANTS MY OLD LIFE BACK..

As i was doing coaching today, i am thankful to yong kok and james to be pushing and forcing me to do things i limit alot. I am trying to open myself up bit by bits. i promise to clear my assessment before my birthday. That's my promise. I don't think i should disappoint both of you for the effort put towards me.

2009-05-07T14:35:00.002+08:00

The Harder You Try To Impress To Gain Acceptance,
The More Often You Found Being Rejected.

It seems right and easy but it is so hard to do it.

2009-05-06T10:31:00.004+08:00

A song i always wanted to play during wedding

2009-05-06T00:26:00.003+08:00

Change new blogskin~!!!

I love it

it's cute

isn't it?

Yesterday was pretty cool. Mr fezial called up regarding some latin club matters. headed down to studio to talk to shawn abt it. bla bla bla.

Woke up late for interview. put alarm at 7 but woke up at 830. Was rushing all my CV everything need for the interview. Kan Chiong like hell. But i reach there 30 mins early.=x. waited for the boss's wife lynette. show me ard the place and start our interview. it was done short and quick. everything done by 1120pm.

Headed back home. doing my cross stitch abit. had a few phone interview calls came. recuit express.LOL. don't ask me why i LOL... then came a call Lynette. I am HIRED~!!! cool.. signing contract this fri. i finally found a job.. =]

DANCING here i comes.

More classes i can join

costumes too~!!!

evening was spend like busy. Busy with my facebook games.=x. at nite also busy. Busy with my games too.=x

SHIT~!
i am super addicted to the games. better finish my cross stitch first.
i need sth to occupy myself.
i wanna get busy.
SOMEONE help me~!!

2009-05-04T00:15:00.000+08:00

Sunday was great for me. Back to kayaking after so long since the Monfort Sec sch camp. Pay was quite less but yet i enjoy myself. Usually i will be the 1st to reach yacht club. this time i was late. Oh my GOD~! this is not so me..=(

Working with 2 coaches. Main Coach james and another coach Zhi Yong. Both very experience coaches. morning session was abit crazy. afternoon session came kenneth. He was supposed to work only for theory but he did up the whole session.=x

I wasn't eating snake or wat. But i was learning. Cause my company keep asking me to clear my assisment but i keep dragging . So James was kind enough to teaches me ways of teaching method to different group of kids.

Class ended by 530..so was ready to leave the place by 630pm.quite early tis time.=)..headed to causway point for dinner with 3 coaches and rong xin.

Next week session with Yong Kok and and benjamin. Don't know who is benjamin.

2009-05-02T15:15:00.002+08:00

Everything that is woman in me

responds to the man in you

I want you to know that

there will never be anyone elses for me

but you.

2009-05-01T22:19:00.006+08:00

Yeah..dancing dancypig

Brian with pig

Dancypig is the name

Trying to kiss the pig..=x

Cute tail that the pig have it

Squeeze it b4 it goes back to the owner

Tiara jus can't let go of the pig

Loves this pig the most

And i love the pig too

Tiara loves the pig we customize for Peter

Take 3

Take 2

Us with the pic b4 giving it to the owner

Tiara with dancypig

Me with danceypig

Dancypig is born~! On 1 May 2009

Dancypig

Hip hop attire

that's the pig we bought it for Peter's birthday present.. Went to customize it for Peter at esplanade. I love the pig..it's damn cute. then headed to Plaza singapura. since it was still early so headed to arcade. as usual bball and arcade. then went to meet peter to collect tickets. Cool~! came NYP dancer, NUS dancers and of couse S&G dancers~!! total ard 30+ came. Movie starting at 12mn but as usual the advertisment ard 17 mins. So when we go in it was abt 1156pm so at 12mn everyone started to sings birthday song for peter. Pretty cool rite. we watch X-men wolverine. Quite a nice show but i wasn't concentrating.Hehe.. ended at 2am. everyone left. Thought everyone wil be gg supper. SHIT. i told my mum i coming back home in the morning only..haiz..message peter are they eating supper or gg hm. he din reply. tink he din see his hp ba. Birthday boy. so walked down that lonely road. In fact i was crying. Why?? Sotong should know ba. I pray to GOD again. HE answered me but i afraid i no longer have the strength to carry on. It's too tiring. The obstacles i have to go thru is too harsh in the sense i can't take it no longer in reality. walking down to the merlion whr i went with fandi in the past on my birthday. the place seems to be full of hatred and love . starry silent night . haiz.. went to raffles city mac to sit down. Alone. msg alot of ppl ard. only a few replied back. Thanks Josh for coming down. He came down to accompany me even after he had bath and was ready to slp le. he came down at 5am to find me. chit chatting all the way till 630 am liddat den we went back home.

2009-05-01T21:32:00.005+08:00

Pictures taken at swissotel on sun during Style Wedding, Atrium Ballroom

Real cake!!!

Taken during Flamanco festival after Tiara's performance

Sry the pic can't be turn for the moment

2009-04-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

Good News..i finally graduate from Diploma in hotel management from CTH with the following results.

Food and beverage operation Credit
Marketing Distinction
Food Hygiene, Health & safety Credit
Front Office operations Pass
facilities & accommodation operations Credit
Hospitality Finance Pass
Introduction to Business operations Credit
The tourism industry Pass
Business computing Distinction
The global hospitality industry Credit

A total of 2 distinctions, 5 credits, 3 pass.
HAPPY !!!!

Sch starting June 15 for my Higher Diploma which will takes me abt a year then will be a year more to get my Degree.
HAPPY!!!!
So many things starting.
Ballet class starting on 28 April.
Higher Diploma starting on 15 June
But when then will my new work starts??
haiz...

2009-04-25T01:30:00.002+08:00

Everyone has their own problems and i have mine too..
Running away might nt be a good solution, but it definitely can be a nice hide out from problems.
But yet i can't even hide out.
What a failure i am.

Many things right nw i am taking it slowly,
As slow as possible.
but it seems to create a displease within me
i guess i am nt used to the life of "slowing" down ba
I perfer the life that my frens describe me,
BUSY woman

The life when i am still in ITE is realli pack
ITE, night class diploma, dance, work
the whole cycle repeats for so long
No life yet it makes me tinks of nth else BUT
FOCUS

Yet nw i am walking with no direction in life.
Doing things i hate yet i have to do it.'
No one realli ask me before what i wan to do
nt even my parents.

Life to me is jus been alone in this world with full of hyprocrites.
Tired of moving on yet moving on for the sake of him
what a failure of me..
haiz..
..
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..
..
..
..
..
..
..
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I wanna slp

2009-04-22T08:43:00.002+08:00

Only the pure at heart can dance well

That's what i learn while reading the history of dance. But does only pure at heart can dance well?? i don't know. I realise sometime that i need to have a make over for myself. I mean in terms of character and attitude. A BIG CHANGE.

After dance on mon when i reach hm, i ws trouble over a qns that a close of fren of mine asked me. Was i upset that he dance with her? I knew i was but gaving all those excuses but at the same time many thing running thru my mind. I was always asking myself the same qns over again and again. Am i really falling for him ? even after hw he is treating me and his character are like? Hmm... let time prove to me ba. I will wait even for that day for the ans to appear. Just like in a fairytale.

The Princess who is waiting for the Prince to appear to have a happily ever after ending.

He's is going HK and Osaka.
Am i gg to miss him alot
or
Not at all?

2009-04-15T02:30:00.003+08:00

It's those small unprefectation make things beautiful perfectation

Hearing from him findin a new partner soon is a happy matter to hear as he will be on dancefloor soon again but i kinda feel sad cos i was longing to partner him one day for 10 dance.Working on my standard hard within the shortest time to reach a certain level doesn't seems to be gd enough..started learning since last year aug cos i longed to dance standard.After knewing him loves standard, i longed to do better than my latin. But everytthing doesn't seems work..

i seriously longed to dance with him 10 dance one day.

2009-04-13T12:42:00.010+08:00

Life is Short

They say it take a minute
to find a special person,
an hour to appreacicate them,
a day to love them,
but then an entire life
to forget them

It is indeed so true. It really takes me a year plus to forget Fandi whom i don't know him well yet been together. Now i found someone so different from what i always used to thinks tat i like such a guy. i always thought i like a guy who is fashionable, cute, considerate, muscular, sweet talker, dotes gf alot..But i was wrong.

Till i know this guy, i realise i fall for someone totally different.

Someone who

Don't know hw to sweet talk to a gal,

Don't know who to be considerate,

Don't know how to dotes gf

Is so stubborn

Is so 大男人 mindset.

But yet i fall in love with such a guy. I know he hates me saying him大男人 and will scold me for calling him that.I know my close friends doesn't wants me to like him after i told them how his character is. I fall for him without knowing myself. Sometimes to think about it, it might be little too late to turn back and not fall for him. I wanna know him even more. I always was thinking whether my feeling for him is a crush? Likes? or Love? After 4 months of seeing him so often, i found an answer for myself.

I have crush on him at the beginning,

Started to likes him for his behaving,

Loves him for who he is, regardless of charater or attitude.

I ask GOD to tell me if he is the one for me. HE nv ans back. everytime when i ask GOD about relationship, he ans me back. But this time, HE didn't. But why? I know myself is so fear of the result that i have to face yet i wanna try. Getting scolded badly yet those sweet moments is so memorable that holding me on. Because been with him, i found myself. I know till now is just one-sided love. It takes 2 hand to clap so i pray that it will happens one day.I don's know what will happen if one day i knew it was not something i expected. Till that day comes, i will

CRY.

2009-04-12T04:00:00.002+08:00

QUIZ
1: Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
- forehead..it's soooo sweet =)

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
- hmm..energtic?cos another new day :)

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
- kenny & Zijian

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoilt?
- nope

5: Would you ever donate blood?
- i wan but i can't..haiz...

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
- got...Yong Quan lor..but he's in australia nw...=(

7: Do you want someone dead?
- erm...nt realli..

8: What does your last text message say?
- went mac for supper..hehe...???

9:What are you thinking of right now?
- thinking of him

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
- yup, someone tat i longed to be with him one day

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
- 3.30am

12:Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
- no idea..it belongs to my sis

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
- the special person

14: Who was the last person to text you?
- Boyi...erm...

15: 10 people tagged to do this quiz:
-kenny
-sheryl
-shi hsia
-Alvin
-Zi Jian
-Cheryl
- Jac
-Josephine
-doreen
-Keli

16: Who is 2 having a relationship with? (Sheryl)
- i m not sure.

17: Is 3 a male or a female? (shi Hsia)
- Female (:

18: If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing? (jac & keli)
- they are not lesbian! :D

19: What is Number 1 studying about? (Kenny)
- waiting for Tekong to come...=x

20: Is Number 4 single? (Alvin)
- Nope..attached to his gf

21: Say something about Number 2? (sheryl)
- likes someone..hehe

22: What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together? (Shi hsia & zijian)
- tot they are laogong laopo?? hehe

23: Describe Number 9. (doreen)
- erm...no comment??

24: What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight? (cheryl & jac)
- they dun even noe each other

25: Do you like Number 8? (josephine)
- nah..i am nt les and she jus my dance fren..=)

2009-04-10T00:50:00.018+08:00

Proud to present pics taken during robinson sales

19 march - 29 march 2009

Singapore Expo Hall 4

Le'Range Sales Promoter
Tan Shi Hsia aka Sotong

2009-04-06T13:02:00.013+08:00

Pictures taken during Crowne Plaza Hotel

2009-04-04T01:41:00.002+08:00

Hmm..guess it's gonna be a mth if i nt gonna update my blog...

On 14th march, gt nationals..result nt so good..got a 4th for grade E rumba and 6th for grade E cha..and semi-finals for Grade D.. haiz...totally depressed but the result..jus wanna find a hole and hide tat day..yet i still managed to put on a smile on tat day..

So after the com started my Robinson Sales at Expo from 19 mar-29 mar ..wearing fully black for 11 days..meals were horrible...Sotong knows why..haiz...

Went for NUS concert on 29 mar..Cac+us.. was nt bad for the latin ballroom part...

Pack back till 230am den online till 5am and getting ready to leave hse for ubin...was tiring yet fun for my 1st day at ubin...was working under navigation..Montfort sec..all guys...me alone gal..

Nicole Aunty

tat's what they call me

Playful but yet nice kids...kinda miss them alot tho..made quite a few frens..Joe, Edmund,Yi Chao, Jun long, Winston..
2nd day was to work as kayaking instructor..had a short expedition for Frog island and chek Jawa..was great..made new frens too..WC,clarence yong kok(met him b4 at sembawang but din realli talk before)..
3rd day was also kayaking but with WC clarence junlong and a new fren Zirong..fun thro..
but my 4th day is back to navigation..need 3 coaches onli..so back to whr i begin on 1st day..was fun too..

To conclude, i am damn TANNED nw!!! argh..horrible...it's ok...i hate it yet i love it..cos i love the sea and it's smell...

And i am moving hse soon...to Sembawang..in July..haiz...

Onli 4 days, things change alot..ppl change alot..why such a big change..?? perhaps i should change too..perhaps i change turn to lesbian too...* dun be surprise if i become one day* as i was watching movie today, things came across my mind ..why am i trying so hard..sometimes i feel tired in tis issue..no confident, no energy to move on..dun wan give up and continue trying yet i feel so tired..why do i fall for such man when he doesn't behave like a gentleman at all..

2009-03-11T10:50:00.004+08:00

Hmm...1 paper down ytd...
COOL~!
marketing..
sure 90% flunk the paper..
=x..

travelling of the day was worst in my life..
10+am enter mrt from tanah merah

Tanah merah-> CCK

(wait for gf sheryl, late for 20 mins)

CCK -> Tanah Merah

(supposed to meet piglet for lunch, but he sick so nv meet)

Tanah Merah-> bugis

Guess what! it shows overstayed..
so headed to control station..the lady was shock how come u travel from tanah merah -> bugis, u spend 3 hours inside??
=x
cause it was 135pm already..

seriously nv stay inside train for so long lor...
guess i love singapore too much le..
haha

TAnning session!!!haha
walk under the hot sun alog arab street to find my stones and lyrca cloth..went to wrong streets..haha.. finally FOUND IT..at the place whe i first went...=x..headed down penesuila plaza for some alteration..on the way to studio guess who i saw..JONATHAN!!! fatty!!! ahaha..

it's been like more than 6 mths we seen each other...so decided to catch up with him at burger king..den accompany him get his lens for camera..den headed down to clarke quay for lens too..den back to my costume..nt yet ready..haiz....so he left first...den came tiara..haha..den headed down to D.Dreams..yeah...wait for her finish her jazz class..den go eat supper den home sweet home...

LAST PAPER TODAY!!! Human Resource Adminstration!!! sure 99% flunk...=x
after today i will be graduating from ITE le..
i dun noe should i be happy or sad..seriously i dun noe...

Fearing with many things in my life in this point of time..

Fearing for the com tis sat

Fearing of my diploma result

Fearing will my chest pain occur during the com

Fearing if i can recover from my toe injury

Fearing if i can get my dance steps right

Fearing if my costume will get it done by tis sat

Fearing what my future will be like

Fearing if i can find a full time job

Fearing if i can cope with my new job

Fearing of entering into the working society

FEARING MOST now is
Fearing after entering into the working society, i will get distance from him
happy with what i am having nw..no more or less i ask..
i jus wish time & things remains as it is right nw
satisify with everything i have at the moment nw
he who changes my character, attitude, habit & behaviour.

SIMPLY

FEARING

2009-03-09T01:13:00.002+08:00

Latest update about Jacqueline's birthday celebration~!!!

Venue: MY hse (woodlands)

Time: 830pm

I have send out an sms already abt the details, so please reply to me latest by Tue 10 march..to confirm the if u are coming..and to transfer the money to my account latest by thurs...i will send an sms to u guys again my account no. on tue after confirmation of ppl...cos i buying the food on FRIDAY..i can't afford to pay for all of u first nw..so pls understand my situation...

DANCING is EXPENSIVE~!!

u know la...

Latest update of confirm people coming
Jacqueline (birthday gal)
ME
Sotong
Kenny
Zhijian

To confirm with me ASAP
Shereen
keli
Sheryl
Manpreet
Jac's fren

Not coming
Fandi
Anthony

2009-03-06T11:38:00.009+08:00

Found some pics in my hp for the last whole mth..so decided to upload some of it..=)

the laundry for the day
after eating..time to work...

Chermaine & me

Yeah..

Eating inside the fridge..

Grabbing a plate to eat first during OT at 12mn....

Eat first

work later...

shh..

Chermaine started eating too

Below are the DessertS~!!

from Siwssotel The Stamford

The day i slack along singpore river while waiting for tiara jazz class to end...it was nice sitting alone, looking at the views..=D

When loneliness inside me

Below is whr i teach my 1 star kayaking course..at Sembawang Yacht Club ..If i am not wrong should be during Feb

After kayaking

Getting ready to bath ~!! But pose first =)

2009-03-02T10:47:00.004+08:00

Hmm...send off yong quan last thurs at airport...this time was nt bad..gt more than 10 people to send him off..hehe...before tat was slacking ard with gf...uploading the pics soon!!!yeah...

fri was the best day i ever hard...dun ask why...jus the best...=D
Had Sc appreciation nite in the eveing..but was still boring...so stay for about 1 1/2 hour??den left to meet tiara...at least my nite was better off...ahaha

Sat was like shit too...
Working at crowne from 9-5 den off for dance...I seriously start to hate sat nite practise...the fear of gg for it.. haiz...NO WORDS to desecribe it... after tat left for mac for tiara..den headed down with freeman and endre to meet peter at the cathy for movie...

Marley & me

9/10

Touching movie

den was chit-chating bla bla bla...till 4am..=P..den Peter left..so the 3 of us continue to slack at padang den back to bras brasah mac till 7am...yeah...sound cool rite...

Den i was slping from 9-1230pm..haha..wake up tidy my table...use internet...den left hse for west coast CC..horrible day!! while warming up i kick the ballerina bar...my TOE!!! tink i factured it..haiz... seeing doc tmr for X-ray...den practise hard for my Waltz..latin do abit la...i feel so happy and relax doing ballroom.. den headed for supper at clementi...ICE-pack on my poor toe..haiz...

Having QUICKSTEP later at nite!!! yeah...=)..

but dun noe can do anot too...TOE is realli in pain..haiz...

2009-03-02T10:21:00.008+08:00

Shania Twain From This Moment

I just swear

That I'll always be there

I give anything

And everything

And I will always care

Through weakness and strength

Happiness and sorrow

For better, for worse

I will love you

With every beat of my heart

From this moment life has begun

From this moment you are the one

Right beside you is where i belong

From this moment on

From this moment, I have been blessed

I live only, for your happiness

And for your love, I give my last breath

From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart

I can't wait to live my life with you I can't wait to start

You and I will never be apart

My dreams came true because of you

From this moment, as long as i live

I will love you, i promise you this

There is nothing, I wouldn't give

From this moment on

You're the reason i belive in love

And you're the answer to my prayer from up above

And we need is just the two of us

My dreams came true because of you

From this moment, as long as I live

I will love you, I promise you this

There is nothing, I wouldn't give

From this moment, I will love you

As long as I live from this moment on

2009-02-26T09:18:00.002+08:00

Hmmm...

Yong Quan Flying off today to Queensland~!!!!

Sending off at Terminal 3 at 1210 am....

Gonna miss him alot man......

especially my MUM...

next time gonna see him at during nov le...

before my 21st birthday~!!!

2009-02-22T10:57:00.003+08:00

Re confirmation of Jacqueline birthday ...hehe

Date: 15 March 2009 (Sun)

Time: Arrived ard my hse 5pm?? those helping can come at 12 or wat?? but NT JACQUELINE!!

Venue: Nicole's Hse

Invited:

Jacqueline

Shi Hsia aka Sotong

Nicole

Kenny

Sheryl

Keli

Shereen

Anthony

Geok Leng

Liduina

Manpreet

Confirmed:

Jacqueline
Shi Hsia aka Sotong
Nicole
Kenny
Sheryl

Shereen

Those not yet confirm please confirm with me by 8 March so that i can calculate hw much food to buy and hw much u have to pay...

Thanks.

2009-02-21T00:08:00.003+08:00

Within a week many things do happen...both bad or gd...like on tue went out with peter den meet Tiara..den slack along Singapore River then meet Tiara den Home Sweet Home..Isn't it nice going out with frens that are close to u??

Wed was better..slacking at sch..day dreaming of how should i pass each days left in ITE..i jus wana graduating..cos i am Not HAPPY at all in ITE..2 years i struggled..1st year was with Violet...2nd year was alone...i hate going to SCH...left to studio, bought a new heels, pay membership bla bla bla...do some stretching for my flexbility...den headed back home to buy down things..den off to causeway point to meet YONG QUAN..haha..last meet up before he flying off again..went to swensen but the waiter service...sat down..

less than 5 mins we jus walk OFF when he walk towards us to order our food...=x

den went to Jack's Place..ate samba steak while YQ ate butter steak???? sound erm abit leh...nvm...enjoyed our meal...then went to aracade.. bball...spot the difference...den neoprints..yeah...nice pics after all..den home sweet home..going send him off next thurs at airport...yeah...

12 MN flight at Terminal 3

Pics of us tgt before he flying off to australia..
thurs wat did i do?? went work...ended early.. meet jacequlinet to collect her hp...den meet spider to see his new hse at tampiness..which is damn far for me..den down to PS for movie with peter...the show is damn nice lor..i rate 9.5/10..He's not that into you..great show..catch the last train..yeah...

FRI!!! GFs outing...meet sheryl den cam along kenny..went to watch movie, Look for A star..nice touching show..i cried..hehe..den send sheryl off den headed down to market place to search some ingredient for baking cake...!!! i gonna bake cake soon!!!

1st time baking a edible cake!!!!
hehe..
for someone of course la...
Kenny knows who...

den headed down to esplanade to chill..nice place...den marina square for some arcade session??haha...den off he went for club!!!back home for me..and i jus feel so tired...KO!

2009-02-16T00:58:00.004+08:00

Valentine day??

hmm..went out with peter and tiara in the morning for

1.)trekking at mount faber..

2.)Lunch at food republic..

3.)bball at arcade..

LOL...wat a day right...haha...

4.)den desert at KOPITIAM..

den home sweet home...

bath den rush off to studio...practise...nt a gd practise nite for me??
Perhaps...headed to duo jian you tiao with tiara freeman and peter...den send Tiara off...den go 5.)catch a midnite movie..Outlander...i will rate 9/10..

reach home 430pm den slp so soundly le...

tat's how i celebrate my 2009 valentine's day...

No flowers, no chocolate, no present...

2009-02-16T00:39:00.002+08:00

GFS AND BFS please read for the upcoming gathering!!!

11 march (wed) Clubbing

15 march (sun) Jacequline's birthday celebration BBQ at MY HSE...Jac u come empty handed...the rest must pay!!! hehe..

GFS that are invited: Jacequline, shi hsia, keli, shereen, kenny, sheryl
PS: who still wan come can tag in the board...thx

2009-02-13T12:41:00.002+08:00

I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE (Barbra Streisand & Bryan Adams)

I finally found someone, that knocks me off my feet

I finally found the one, that makes me feel complete

We started over coffee, we started out as friends

It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin

This time it's different, dah dah dah dah

It's all because of you, dah dah dah dah

It's better than it's ever been

'Cause we can talk it through

Oohh, my favorite line was "Can I call you sometime?"

It's all you had to say to take my breath away

(Chorus)

This is it, oh, I finally found someone

Someone to share my life

I finally found the one, to be with every night

'Cause whatever I do, it's just got to be you

My life has just begun

I finally found someone, ooh, someone

I finally found someone, oooh

Did I keep you waiting, I didn't mind

I apologize, baby, that's fine

I would wait forever just to know you were mine

And I love your hair, sure it looks fine

I love what you wear, isn't it the time?

You're exceptional, I can't wait for the rest of my life

(Repeat Chorus)
Whatever I do, it's just got to be you My life has just begun I finally found someone

2009-02-13T10:54:00.005+08:00

Hmm... life in ITE is getting bored but guess i am going to graduate soon~!! hooray...!!! Start sch at 1pm...left sch at 3pm..So what did i learn today?? to watch an olden day singapore soccer movie...Was funny after all..guess i enjoy it ..=) Then headed down to The Cathy to meet Peter Teo for movie.Saw Shane when queuing up for movie.Guess what we said to each other:

Nicole: What are you doing here at 4pm?

Shane: Watching movie with gf??

Shane: What about u too? What are you doing at here at 4pm too?

Nicole:Watching movie ??

Nicole: Ain't you supposed to be at school studying and not in hm clothes?

Shane: Think i have ended school..How about u?

Nicole: Guess i have ended school too.

It was like both of us knows we didn't attend school finish..haha..but with a innocent face in front of the people we are watching movie with..haha...i left school an hour earlier only..cos it is really bored..haha...So decided over a few movies, we decided to watch

Valkrie

Was a nice show..About hw they trying to kill Hitler but was unsuccessful..Nice show..2 hour plus..ended at 710pm. Since it was early so we decided to watch another show...

New in Town

It was a comedy. We was like laughing like erm... but great show...It's gd to watch something serious then a comedy. Can wash our brain..haha..ended 9 plus. Walking down to eat tuo jian you diao..nt much people when we arrived . but when we left, so many people keep coming in. It was lucky we came early to eat. Chatting..bla bla bla..guess i really learns alot from Peter Teo..hmm.. so after that home sweet home!!!

But before i reach hm, i received a message, Peter Teo vomited 6 times before reaching home.. Oh My god...is it the food we ate?? but i gt nothing wrong leh..hmmm.. but guess he is already nw already...???

Try it

2009-02-12T02:01:00.002+08:00

TRY IT!!! for fun??

ABOUT ME:

001. Real name → Nicole Ong

002. Nickname(s)→ Jesco, Jes-sicko, Ya Da, Jessica

004. Zodiac sign → Sagittarius

005. Male or female → Female

006. Elementary → Qihua Pri Sch0

07. Middle School → Yuan Ching Secondary School

008. High School → ITE??

010. Hair color → Brown with abit of black

011. Long or short → Medium

012. Loud or Quiet → most of the time loud

013. Sweats or Jeans → Sweats

014. Phone or Camera → Phone

015. Health freak → Nt really

016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink

017. Do you have a crush on someone? YES

018. Eat or Drink → both

019. Piercings → Used to have 14..nw left 4 ?

020. Tattoos → yup..beside my naval piercing

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing → -9/09/99..my mum chose the date

024. First best friend → i can't rmbr.. i dun noe who i can trust

025. First award → can't remember le...a handful??

026. First crush → Erm...dun remember le

027. First pet → Fighting Fish???

030. First big birthday → My 18th birthday??? 5 cakes total in 15 hours!!!

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating → at 730pm at NUS

050. Drinking → Plain water

052. I'm about to → Sleep??

053. Listening to → Just one last dance

054. Plans for today → went for NUS blast, chat , slp

055. Waiting for → 230am den i will go slp...20 more mins

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? → Of course..a twins

059. Want to get married? → Yes..

060. Careers in mind → Air-stewdess or a dancer??

WHICH IS BETTER?

068. Lips or eyes → Lips

070. Shorter or taller? → Shorter

072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic

073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Stomach

074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive

075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship

076. Trouble maker or hesitant → Trouble maker!

HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts → Yes..all my frameless spects i lost it...!!!

081. Ran away from home → a night counted??

082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → NOPE

083. Killed somebody → If i wouldn't get jailed??

084. Broken someone's heart → Yup

085. Been arrested → Yes

087. Cried when someone died → YES

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → Erm..dun tink so

090. Miracles → Sometimes

091. Love at first sight → YES

092. Heaven → Yes

093. Santa Claus --> YES

094. Sex on the first date → Nope

095. Kiss on the first date → MAYBE

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → YES

098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → ERm...dun tink so

099. Do you believe in God → yes i do

100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people→ Perhaps

2009-02-12T01:33:00.003+08:00

I don't know if it gonna be a torture for me..but guess i have to go thru this long period

Wondering what it means...ask me!!! i might tell YOU~~~!!!!

Was a boring day at sch..which is like EVERYDAY...i am like jus going school for the sake of marking attendance...successful graduating my ITE next mth..last paper on 11 march which is my Human Resources Adminstration~!!! argh... hate it...

Laptop and library become part of me...Accompanying me to school..allowing me to pass time easier in sch...and of course FASTER~!!

Thanks Laptop

*Muacks*

Wearing inapporiate attire to school everyday...slippers, dance pants with any top...~!! oh my GOD~!! dun let others know that i am the 4th president of student council...haha...cause i am against the school rules...Not wearing landyard too...=x...and of course dying my hair too...=XXX.. but nvm i jus wan to be a typical ITE student...dun wear landyard bla bla bla...

Going sch for about 2-4 hours on average daily..den off i went for dance..today was the same too..left sch at 1pm..off i went home to change with proper sandals..cos i am in slipper...den for practise...sometimes i jus wan to say F*** ...i dun wish to elaborate more...

SELFISH GUY~!!!

Left and met tiara for NUS Blast at UCC..meet peter teo to get the tickets first before heading down to eat dinner...the chicken taste horrible man..haiz..was late for the show abt 10 mins..but was nice...but guess it didn't interest me alot..perhaps i have been watching ballet these few days...haha...off to clementi mac to chill with tiara...supposed to be at clark quay..but din went.....nice talking to tiara...guess i am really close to her right now..able to open up most of my stuffs and secrets...

Guess i am really getting to be afraid nw for the things i choose right nw...how!!! what should i do now!!!

2009-02-12T01:01:00.005+08:00

Oh yeah...this is the guy i mean in my previous blog..Choo Yong Quan...the guy that doesn't get tan easily...argh...Envy him mah...haiz...taken with him on 4th feb..

I bought a wig recently for my dance com...it looks like the loong perm hair i used to have it..i miss my long hair alot man..

DOes it look like me???

Took with kenny during work at crowne...a place whr work is so slack..haiz...

As usual..the zilian me during work...with the idiot face whenever i take pic...hehe..

Picture took during chingay with my group 7...i miss them lots...

Tiara and Christine at studio~!!!Me and Tiara

2009-02-08T23:18:00.003+08:00

hmm... after days passed i enjoyed every single day i have in my life...with frens that makes my days every day..jus like on Tue...staying at sch whole day to use internet den went down to see peter's jazz class..den meet up with tiara den slack along Clark Quay with a bottle for jack daniel coke and a mexcian beer..chilling along the river was quite a gd idea thru while waiting for peter teo..

Wed was a gd day too...had my root canal treatment...i cried..=(...so pain...den headed down for wisma to check out the ballet books tat time i view..den down to bishan for some practise.. talk to ms foo about the com..hope can send couple down..she agree~!!!! dun noe who will casey will be sending to it..

but neverthless at least we are sending a couple for our batch..=D..did our samba routine..getting in love with it ..=p

Then headed down to bishan to meet Yong Quan!!!!

Choo Yong Quan~!!!

Meet for dinner at the coffee shop to eat the famous chicken rice...order popiah also la...poor me can't eat much..=(

den went to look around..viewing jeans for him and jus crapping lor...gonna send him off on 27 feb to australia at 12mn...=x

must send him no matter wat...my best guy fren...

admire for his fair skin lor...argh...

and he finally pass me my birthday present~!! ripcurl rashguard..nice..fit jus nice on me..clever guy bought the right size of my body...

Then down to cine for movie with peter teo..movie "doubt"..nt a bad show after all..den home sweet home le...

Thurs and a boring day for me ..teaching kayaking at kallang lor..had HRA exams...but i still enjoy my day...jogging and facial day~!

Fri i went to work..6am~!! damn sleepy lor..end at 11 am the work le..sicko also lor.. den headed to cathy to watch benjamin button...nice show..touching too...den headed down to studio for practise..den to tanjong pagar to meet tiara for dinner and down for belly discovery for belly dancing..=)..was fun but i guess it's not my type of dance.. ended quite early went down to the old place to meet peter teo..den was chit chating..talking about my match making by my parents...haha..kinda funni..den we walk around to visit latin pub den headed down to visit Ba Ki Teh shop..cos i din see b4 what's bak ku teh..kinda sad rite...since young didn't realli eat pork so didn't know what is it too...then headed down to boat quay..raffles place...douby ghaut...it's about an hour plus walk...by the time reach the shop to eat soya bean with you tiao..i am like KO le..didn't eaten the whole day..so was too weak while walking..after that headed down back home le lor...

Sat was like no work..but bai nian to aunt's house..was kinda funni too la...trying to have a match making session too..long story so not going write here..den went back to eat dinner...my treat...=)..all my ang pao money gone...=(..so no difference..den down for practise...

Sun was like another busy too..woke up late for service..=(...so didn't go..i long to go back service...so many qns in my mind that i am doubt and wanna ask..haiz...then went to pei joanna buy costume at cindini..=)buy look around for accessories for costume then down for lesson...after that went out to eat dinner with endre and abel...home sweet home again...=)

2009-02-02T09:57:00.002+08:00

Hmm...it came accross my mind when i recall sth about wat one of my gfs ask me..

"Is it worth dancing?? Spending so much money on costumes, private lessons, shoes etc.? you can actually buy things u been desired? "

My ans was still unknown..i started danching when i was pri 5..started off with indian dance.. den went on to malay dance for 4 years..den to chinese dance den ballet..den switch to hip hop becos of scouts. stayed for abt a year plus onli..den nw to latin.was in latin since 2007 may..so it's gg to be 2 years soon..but hw long am i be able to stay..hopfully as long as i can?? gg back to ballet soon??

People even asked me..
"full time dancer?"

Ans: NOPE..

Cause this is nt my cup of tea..i jus want to dance as hobby?? i can't made any empty promise of hw long can i dance..but i will continue dancing till sth happens?? Chingay had jus passed too.i thanks GOD for the frens i had made during this 3 mths. it maybe jus a mass dance but yet i enjoyed my days with my church. i thanks them for the period they were with my when JJ passed away. They were really there for me. Thanks everyone..especially pastor kang ying...

2009-01-30T11:02:00.003+08:00

28th Jan (wed)
Sad..went to sch jus to get my HRA revison notes from My Hari..cos ineed to resit my year 1 paper..haiz...my projecy gets a A..my CA gets a B...even i fail badly for year end paper..i can't get a overall F rite...??

Project A
CA B
final paper F
----------------
F????
Really like wat lor..even fail badly i at least get a D or E rite...nw is a F!!!!! argh... nvm...retake retake lor..haha...den off i go after gg sch for 20 mins...
den meet Peter Teo to orachard to buy his comic...den was viewing at the dance book section tat he intro..those ballerina is amazing..wonderful..i simply jus fall in love with it..it makes me determine to start my ballet again...=)...den meet freeman ..went lucky plaza eat Peter Teo chicken rice..but din open..haha..went Lum's food court to eat..he treat us the drinks lor...the chicken tights too..but it taste sux...den went over to the cathy to buy over tickets...i 4get to buy..=x...only gt 1st row seats...i make uncle teo uncle like mad again..=x...walk quietly to PS..gt tickets over thr...heng...as usual arcade again...bball... haha.. den came tiara...den movie..the wedding game!!! it was damn funni...haha..den we went to the cathy for chill out at startbucks...den off home we went...HOME SWEET HOME~!!

29 jan 2008 (thurs)
Hmm.. slacking at home till 11+ den off to sch i went...for some crappy lesson for EVM and toking cock session for POM till 4pm..den off to harbour front to meet peter teo to go see tiara flamanco..took bus at wrong direction!!! argh..almost reach har pa villa le lor..argh...took cab back...the sch is jus beside river valley high school ..DANCE CIRCLE studio..hmm.. waited for tiara...she was late!!! =x...cos work end late... so peter teo decided to go walk outside..so off we went to walk..uphill, downhill..everywhr lor...argh..den to southernridge bridge...the bridge is nice..beautiful..quiet..nice for joggin..maybe go thr run one day...tink should be able to see abit of sunset...haha...i was like sweating lor..cos carrying one laptop ard..=x...but it was nice walking..den sunset le...gg to be 8pm le...so headed off back to meet tiara..but her class haben end..ended at 830 onli...den ate our dinner downstair..nt bad the food..quite nice..den off we went to vivo to eat the itlian dessert..but close le..=(..so HOME SWEET HOME again lor..haha

2009-01-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

23th - 25th Jan 2008 (fri-sun)
Exams finally over!!! hope can pass my last 3 papers with flying colours....can graduate can le...yeah...get my diploma cert in march!!!! weee....went to penesulia plaza to get sis passport den rush hom...weee...off to genting!!!! jan on the road...=(..supposed to check in bro's police apartment by 6pm..but we are late....Luckily we are late too..it was too scary...white apartment with red paint splash on it...argh...but overall it was fun...came back on 25th jan...eat our dinner at 888 plaza...sad hor..all foodcourt nv open..but nvm...eat together with family is fun~!!!

26th jan...(Mon)
Had some tradition ceremony at home cos is chinese new year...den came my aunt, uncles and cousin...den sis's fren came too...was busy till 6+ lor..den finally reunion dinner for our family...haha...=)..

HAPPY CHINESE YEAR TO EVERONE~!!!

27th jan (tue)
ONE word... i am at WORK the whole day..
=(

2009-01-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

Proud to present my new HP..hehe..
=D

17 Jan 2009
Went for my citizenship ceremony...was great feeling for getting PINK NRIC finally...weee...congrats to myself...den rush down to shenton tower hotel for the interview...it was like WT*..out of 4 groups of 10..they choose none!!!!! den why bother do interview..haiz...wait till i get my degree den i trying again ba..haiz...den went to walk ard..eat lunch...go popular see some books..den went studio...doesn't wan to attend the technique class de..cos i dun even noe the routine...have to realli catch up lor...haiz..den start nite practise...was getting better ba...=)..

But seriously i realii want to do standard..Waltz and Tango...but is for lion city la...hehe..and Benji agree..hehe...

18 Jan 2009
Swissotel cancel my work so left nite..den went o repair dad's hp at wisma den headed down to causeway point to check my line..den dad ask me choose hp..he buying for me..wee...i choose sony ericsoon W980 de..no stock..den choose sony ericsoon P1i..bo stock again..haiz..so end up choose Nokia E71 black series..hehe..i love my new hp..but nt so used to its' function cos it is keyboard..hehe..den dad ask me dun go work as i gt exam the next day..bo pian have to listen lor..den at nite went to fish mart to eat..food ok ok la..but is EXPENSIVE lor..argh...nt worth the money at all..so PEOPLE if u wan eat at fish mart, tink carefully..i dun tink it worth the money lor..and when we order crab, they cook us crab..and we have to pay...it taste SUX..haiz..went hm study..bla bla..

19 Jan 2009..
morning had Food & beverages operation exam..hope can get a credit..lucky get distination ba..den afternoon had hospitality finance..it sux man...it hate accounting...i jus aim for a pass ba...=x.. den down i go to studio to crap..den went to find hong yu to studio..TANGO...
i love tango...~!!!
i'm loving it...
=D

20 jan 2009..
Alarm at 5am but i woke up at 7am..hehe..rush down to paya lebar mrt to meet yiling they all..go macpherson ITE to slack...haiz...rehersal onli at 1130..haiz...but
I feel so...
IRRITATED
& ANGRY!!!

the teacher came to tell us senior no need perform le..cos dun tink got much ppl will watch...
i was like WT*..we are with our make up and costume le..u telling me no need perform...i was damn piss off...
haiz...

2009-01-14T10:37:00.004+08:00

Pictures taken during NP open hse..went with my gf & Kenny..

Jus craping ard

All abt my craps

Mr bean

Feed my GF sheryl

Candy FLoss for free!!

With my nerdy spects

Sheryl me Kenny

Sheryl & me

Fusion dance group

Batucadas (NP open hse)

2009-01-10T09:05:00.002+08:00

Jus a short update b4 i go to chingay rehearsal...

Went for dental appointment in the morning at 10 am at jurong medical appointment.. den walk ard till 1245 when sheryl came..ate kfc den headed downt clementi to meet kenny...den down to NP..yeah..we were like wtf sia..we are too siao le ba...getting high ourself...haha...

**Kenny stop reading this and laughing to youself...**
high high

went ard..see NPDS booth first...find gino den went to BA to look ard..the ppl over thr also crap with us...haha...den we haddddd

CANDY FLOSS~!!!!!
Yummy

den go nursing booth to crap..
i poke sheryl...
sheryl poke poke poke poke
lame...

den back to atrium for performance..haha..den watch performance...nice nice...self-high again me and sheryl..den left le...headed to bugis...i love tat top and bottom sia..but it cost me $59..haiz...but i realli love it alot la...haiz...den walk all the way to my sch...

thanks...haha...den exams!!! Finance..holy shit...i nv bring calculator...calculate till siao sia...louis even more best...cam in at 710pm..left at 712pm...jus to write name...haha...power hor...haha...

hmm...reflection time!!!
A fren of mine who know me abt a year plus tell me tis...You have changed alot le..u used to be not like now...u changed after tat incident...i can't blame him for what happen..it's my fault...i have no confident in tis area...i trust no one anymore.. today is 10 jan..a day to remember..=(..maybe i realli change bad le..when will i change back the old me..i dun noe...maybe till the day when i change back jus like the past???those who work in RCCC will know what i am refering abt ba...

i hate the way i am, i doesn't know what i am doing...all i wan my past to be forgetten ... but i miss everything..
i admit i change..is not tat bad yet ba???

2009-01-09T02:40:00.001+08:00

Goals for 2009

-Successful perform finish for Chingay 2009
-Graduate smoothly for both ITE & private diploma
-Continue my Advance diploma
-Get a new dance costume
-Take part in grade D standard & grade C for lion city dancesport championship
-Start my ballet class~!
-Earn more money!!! so that i can spend more!!
-BE a more guai daughter
-Back to CHURCH one day..i mean really back to church and STOP giving excuses
-Get a full time JOB~!! anymore gt job to intro??
-Taiwan/HK trip end of the year
-Make over
-Grow long hair back again..i really miss my long hair~!!

That's what i wanna achieve for 2009...simple izzit...?? hehe ..achievable ba..?? i had been eating like a PIG for the past few weeks..horrible le la...eating steamboat, haagan daz , mac, KFC, snacks snacks snacks...haiz...I AM GETTING FAT..keep going out with PETER TEO!!! soon i am gg to join his club le la...went to watch 7 pounds with him last fri..nice show...i wan to watch PONYO CLIFF BY THE SEA!!! argh...i will watch it during his outfield next week la...argh...

went to holland V jus nw with tiara and peter for supper!!! haagan daz..nice!!!!chocolalic~!!! nice chill out place..nice music too..

had been dancing..but unfortunately last sat, i injured my left thighs.. tink i pull my thigh muscles..den on mon doesn't wan to go tango..but i still went...den was busy with performance on mon and tue...horrible...i worsen my injury...haiz...wed gt practise..samba...worse..went chingay but din practise..haiz...

it's 240am...
Time to slp...
Dental appointment tmr!!!

2009-01-09T01:57:00.000+08:00

Was hearing this music..kinda like it's flow of music...

Sarah Connor- Just one last dance

Just one last dance....oh baby...just one last dance

We meet in the night in the Spanish cafe
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
Tomorrow will come an it's time to realize
Our love has finished forever

How I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
How I wish we make it through

[Chorus:]
Just one last dance
Before we say goodbye
When we sway and turn round and round and round
It's like the first time
Just one more chance
Hold me tight and keep me warm
Cause the night is getting cold
And I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
But I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love

There's no way to come with you
It's the only way to do

[Chorus 3x (until fade)]

Just one last dance, just one more chance, just one last dance

2008-12-30T14:29:00.002+08:00

hmm...guess it's been a realli long time since I have updated le...wasn't a gd 1 mth plus MIA...to noe more..read on...

15 nov 2008

i started off my new partnerhsip with benji...was gd to have a new partner after my partnership with taz break off a week back..it was realli fast to found a partner..so guess i was kinda looking forward for the new partnership ba..

16 nov-5 dec 2008
Busy with ITE school...chingay rehearsal bla bla..went for SIA interview on 23 nov..managed to get into the final interview onli...=(..kinda sad...but yet i determin to try again..=)...my dreams is to be a SQ gal...=)...

6 & 7 dec 2008
went to work first day at crown plaza hotel..went with sotong kenny zijian..was fun thru..so many team leader alike like swissotel..haha...like benard=kenneth, martell=jazwann, cyer=jason..haha...den work for 40th birthday party of a lady and 2 gays...was like...it was like "Am i at a club??" environment everything was so like as if i am clubbing..it was great...den took bus to my hse...den came jac and keli..

IT"S PARTY TIME!!!
AT 1AM~!

start preparing all the food...my signature food..char siew chicken wings???hmm...many food...haha...prawns!!!! our fav!!..haha..den ate till ard 3am when the bbq thing spoilt...=x...den start clearing up..den took out our drinks...den start playing TRUE or DARE..was fun..for the videos, pls go to my facbook...played till 5am..cos everyone was drunk except me and sotong..

birthday gal not drunk??
hmmm...
=x

den jac vomited...=x...put her to bed..haha..den while i and sotong go mrt buy panadol den go to the park to slack..haha...fun..came back le they still sleeping..hmm...den join them to slp..haha..den they left at 10am...while i go back slp..den at 3+ left hse to meet tiara at singapore flyer..hmmm...freeman was at thr le..she bought logo cake for my birthday..sushi and drinks..

thx tiara & peter...

nice venue for celebration as pot luck..den came peter..thx peter...den headed for movie at marina square..BOLT..nice show..thx for the treat..

Realli can't imagine if i dun have u dance frens and work frens..guess i can't even celebrate my brithday..i will be anyhow thinking..especially when walking to singapore flying.the time, the journey..it was the same when i meet up with fandi..it was horrible feeling..i hate it..but guess i pull thru..=)..

8-21 dec 2008
Took my cha cha and rumba routine with Mario..was a nice cheoro..i love it...=)..all i can say i am busy with work...school.. chingay..

22-28 dec 2008
This period will gonna be the worst period in my life.and i will nv 4get.....heard from kelvin on mon tat junjie meet with a accident..i din realli put in mind..din expected it will be a serious accident.but when i heard on tue what happen, my heart sunk...i pray to GOD for miracles for junjie..went to ICU to visit junjie from wed onwards..it's was realli heart breakinng..he was on life support..BE STRONG EMI..den on 26 dec..i went to sentosa with frens..i shouldn't have gone..cos after tat i went to hospital agian..junjie went for brain scanning..so we waited for the result till jj's mum cried running out..we were like, "can't this be the truth?" doctor pronounce him as brain dead..=(..everyone cried badly..i can't beleif it myself too..we went to see jj for the last time...

went home..can't slp whole nite.till 5am i was too tired.i fall asleep..woke up at 8am..den go chingay.den Kai msg me the result..i bust out into tears..pamela was thr..the cell leaders thr pray for me..church was realli thr for me..i thx GOD for tis..went to find rene and told her..we broke into tears....i left hm to change to attend the wake..meet up with peter,josh and jos..it was heartbreaking to see the situation..i can't belief tat is JJ..stayed till 9pm den left home..

went to wake up 9am with rene in the morning...left to mandai at 11am.. i hate the situation..2nd i went to MANDAI..first time was DR WEE KEE WEE funeral...haiz..

i curse and swear the guy who drink and drank and hit JJ & EMI..u will get ur retribuation one das..left for lunch with kelvin tiara jos peter josh they all..went went hm slp for abt haf an hour den left home for a swim with tiara at bukit batok..cancel my work for the whole day..i realli dun have mood to work at all..seriously i dun...i hate it...whenever i close my eyes, i saw JJ in the ICU and at the wake..i hate it..
I hate it
i hate it
i hate it
DEAR heavenly Father,

Father i pray that, may u bless JJ that he can rest in peace. i pray for emi tat You will bless her with the strength to get over this period of time..i know she is a strong gal but i know her heart is crying..bless her for protection that you can give her..strength to carry on..courage to get over this period...i pray for jj family to hold strong..In jesus name i pray..Amen..

2008-11-14T23:36:00.002+08:00

It's been like a week plus ever since i have updated.Since i have some time so update what had happened.

6th Nov
It was 5th student council investiture. Had rehearsal since 9am. Get changed by 430 and was ready for the baton hand over session at forum. yeah..I am glad to announce that
I HAVE FINALLY HAND OVER AS A PRESIDENT
=x
Look back i don't know if i had regret been as a president anot. but i know it was definitely a enjoyable year for me. Sorry exco that i had MIA for a while due to my dance.Yet i thank you for been understanding..=).. was glad when nabil(3th president) wrote on my facebook.

"hey jess!

first of all, congrats on handing over to the 5th batch! and welcome o the ex-Pres club! =)

myself, fareed and marcus is pleased to hear the achievements an acomplishments of the 4th Batch. under your leadership, they've attained and continued the legacy of the SC activities and implementing more new ones.. i hope you've gotten the best... Read More out of this 1 year journey... Read More and you'll put it to good use when it comes later in life..

you've got a special talent that not a lot of ppl do. i encourage you to develop it further and suceed in your best area of interest.

rmb, you left behind something special - you are the FIRST lady president and will ALWAYS be the first LADY President!

best wishes to you! =)"

it was indeed great to be the first lady president of ITE college east with about 100 student councillors under me and of course a representive of 8000 students for the college.And course not forgetting during my term i was able to host MM LKY. that was the best in my life.=)

And course nto forgetting those came to my investiture, My dad, mum, mum and my 3 gfs. JACEQULINE & SOTONG and LI LIAN(came wif her sch.) Especially when they bought a bouquet for blue roses for me. my favourite flower..=).. it was a surprise for me indeed and i was happy like hell. Blue roses, gfs, family..perfect night. To add on, not forgetting my dance partner Nicholas..=)..loves him la...haha..for dancing with me the night. and my club mate. you ming and rachel. And also jiaqi and his gf. perfect night~!!

8th nov
Happy things over..now for the sad and heart-breaking matter. I have broke partnership with taznium. =(.. i cried badly..i mean realli bad.i cried over the weekends. 7 mths 26 days partnership together. Haiz.. i need time to get over.

words from my bottom of my heart about this partnership.
" I knew we will break up one day as partners but never will i expect it will be so fast. i hold on as much as i can. even i am unhappy, i wun say it out. cos i know i treasure things between us when i eventually fall in love with taz but later realise we are impossible.soo....these mths when both of us get injured our knees ankle together. eating jelly beans. when i fall sick, he will also concern me and "scold me"..finding costumes for me..taking lesson and get scolded my hell..those days in batu pahut..during com, in the taxi, at the dinner..things was realli great. I miss those moments. i dun noe what to do but yet i have to face the reality we are over as he can't commit to dance due to NS. but yet i still the days dancing together. People says getting a partner is harder than getting a bf. it is true. especially after all the shits we had gone thru tgt.i miss those days"

for the whole week, was busy with my projects, went for kayaking KOP on tue then dance, then had chingay. My life seems to be getting boring. I hate such days. i occupy myself with as many things i could. joggin, swimming, dancing, skipping, sleeping too.. i hate my life right now.why is everytime is this point of year, i will face sth sweet and nice then horrible things.

23 more days too. i hate the day to come. will i be able to be happy on that day jus like anyone ? planning events on that day. Or should i sleep whole day?? haha... the day Fandi propose to me on my birthday...was a horrible and memorable i should say i gonna have every year??

And FOO YONG QUAN is coming back from Australia this sun~!!! i miss i miss i mmiss him la..i mean the present he buying...hehe..rashguard..haha...fetching him up tis sun at airport..=)..5mth din see him le..food haunting, kayaking soon!!! next year diving soon!!!

And also all the sudden i felt sth missing in life. it is not love. but sth else..i can't figure out too..what's tat??

Will upload with more pics

2008-11-05T01:32:00.013+08:00

Some old pics i found in my hp...

manpreet me aishia

After i cut my hair..abit wierd..but still ok..

Red roses

Champagne rose

Purple roses

For shawn by Joan for teacher's day

for mario by joan

for gladys by joan

My last year birthday roses..=)

Can someone after reading my blog, give me a small bouquet of rose on my investiture...hehe..small bouquet will do..hehe..=x..i miss roses..

Roses are red
Violet are blue
The one who give me
are so sweet too...
=)

Jack daniel T-shirt

buy jack daniel, a calculator for u by jack daniel..hehe..

My bar counter

Mixing drink is my job..=)

My bar counter again..

Gentleman Jack 1litre

Old No. 7

Jack Daniel

1.75 litres

Jack Daniel 1 litre old packaging

Jack daniel scene 43% alcohol

The products i am selling during my work at changi Aiport termainal 3..=)

At Vip lounge during karate championship

The food..nice..

That's when mampreet get's bored..haha..

Me when i jus cut hair

Sotong

Sotong & me

Complicated setting

stalls deco

banana boat??

Table setting

VIP setting

2008-11-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

Love is patient and kind,
it's not jealous or conceited or proud.

Love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable,
love is not happy with evil but is happy with the truth.

Love never gives up and its faith,hope and patience never fail.

2008-11-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

It's dad's birthday today!!!

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to Daddy!!
Happy Birthday to you!

Woke up ard 6am den at 830 headed down to ICA to take my new passport..hehe..

Back of NRIC been punch hole

BLUE NRIC gone....pink NRIC coming up soon...=)

den rush down to buona vista den down to ITE dover..had some rehearsal..it was F*** up...
last min changes...
but we are clever club..
tried to change within a few hours??
i dirty my jacket!!!
=[
performance started at 4pm for us onli??
had fun at the back stage dancing and taking pics..will get the pics from You ming to upload soon..
=]
headed down to Vas and Pris shop to collect my ballroom skirt!!!
nice...
=}
den to studioo..
class started at 845pm onli.
=(
i saw IRMA
she's back from Chicago!!!
i miss her..
den rush back home..reach hom at 1130pm??
everyone slp
but dad leaves some kfc for me..
sweet daddy..
i need to buy birthday present for him...
waitin for my pay..
idiot airport pay haben get..
what should i pay for him??
hmmm...
suggestions???

waoke up ar 11am again??hehe..bath den fall asleep on sofa..hehe..den rush down to sch for rehearsal lor..haiz...crapping and started rehearsal at 4? den tinks of some steps for the front part lor..it was nice...drops...stunts..haha...of course with my ITE partner nicholas..we are known as N square..cos we are nicole & nicholas..haha.. night class was abit fun till 9 am until i fall asleep at 915?? last 15 mins?hehe..

2008-11-02T23:54:00.004+08:00

It was madness for the gfs on 31 oct & 1st nov!!! ended dance rehearsal at dover ite at 4 ..supposed to meet youming at 2pm.but late so headed to coffee shop for lunch..

Sugar cane drink

Sinnful lunch..char kway tao..=x

den rush down to admiralty to meet jac, keli & shereen. They came to hse for some make over?? haha...dress up bla bla den we left hm at 630?? hehe..supposed to meet sotong and kenny at 630 at CCK de.but sotong was late so its ok..except kenn who reach at 640..came sotong at 7+ den took cab to night safari...it cost at $13++ oh my god!!! so ex...but shared by 3 person is ok la...den tat anthony reach thr damn early with his gay fren ba.=x..took pics..start queuing for ticket...

jac buying tickets..without her cuting queue, we will still be queueing at 9pm..haha
* thanks jac for cut queuing...=x*

Took with all those "ghosts"..was like damn funni and enjoying..den went in..
NO GHOSTS!!! onli animals!!! haiz..all went outside le lor..haiz...end up took pics AT the animal not with the animals la..haha..

we love the bat cage hor..screeamming like madness..haha..=x..went out took pics again..den went few ghost inside lor..argh..chase her from toilet to himself den she run so fast lor..argh...din manage to take le..haiz...

then off to clarke Quak for night life..haha..supposing to go Zouk but den afraid shereen and keli can't go in due to underage..so headed to clarke Quay to try luck..went to eat mac first..

Lunar* first to go
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FAILED~!

Haiz...even i had to take out my NRIC lor..argh..
NExt we went to
The Arena* 2nd of list
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Success~!!!
But
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Shereen can't go in..
=(
Tried to help her make up and change hairstyle to look matured but still failed..Shereen had no choice but to go home le lor..haiz..Sry shereen..we will go next year when u 18 in jan ok...Keli can go in due to her matured look..hehe..
I love The Arena..
Live band
Nice music
I simply love it..we went it ard 12mn..started dancing after 1st drink till 2am?? den after 2nd drink dance all the way till 5am?? hehe..i made a new dancing "bf" name Aaron..
He's abit cute isn't he Jac??
i can't see cos he has been behind me all the while..
=x..
den left Arena at 5am +..walk in the rain all the way to Raffles Shopping center starbucks lor..
slack over there..
saw lao da Kenneth at 550am??
so early for work??lol
den at 6+ headed back home...
slept till 1am??
den bath bla bla..

left home to Arab street to buy some stones for my costume?? den headed down to S&G for kids jive class..The kids are indeed fun..Will take pics with them one day to post..attended Technique class??it's been like 1 whole mth i din attend??

Oh my God!
Lucky gt Yong Yen dance with me in the class..if not i will be lonely dancing alone as taz din came due to some reasons..went to buy dinner and ate outside the studio small cafeteria??haha..
started practsing my routines and waltz ALONE!!
i mean
ALONE!!
it's so weird..
Jus like when i started learning latin..
but soon i noe i will have to get used to it..=(
Indeed i have been thinking alot for the past few weeks..
No words to describe it..
LONELINESS within me
i love dancing yet i hate it too..

It's dancer life??
isn't it??
Ups and downs??
guess i got more downs than up ba...haiz...
but i still love dancing..haha..

i didn't went work today..cos i have a
TERRIBLE
GASTRIC PAIN ard 2am..
Thought it was jus a normal pain..but it hurts me till 5am when i was about to go for work..i have already change lor..but i was like struggling like a mad women squeezing my stomach?? almost ended up to hospital le lor..but luckily i din..took some medicine by mum den call sotong i not gg work den went to slp..woke up at 10am with pain again!!!sotong me and jac nv go work too..all sick..after clubbing effect..haha..so mum some french toast for me den i rest for while again...better le lor..

rest..
use com..
den headed down to expo...
for MAgic box at chingay next year..
rehearsal...
nice rehearsal..hehe

2008-11-02T23:22:00.003+08:00

On the train to meet Shi Hsia and Kenny at CCk

Mirror image

At the entrance to Night Safari

Me with ben & jerry ice-cream

halloween ice-cream

Tickets

Jac with the flower

With the straw man

Pretty lady outside the toilet

with funni clowns and nerdy us

Kenny with tree ghost

Pretty ghosts...=x

outside snow white and 7 dwarfs hse

Snow white's witch stepmother

she trying to stuggle me!!!

dracula and green woman?

Keli tyring to rock with the butcher ghost..and the ghost play along..haha

2 bestie gfs

We do enjoy animals in nigth safari too..=x

GFS

GFS

Times when gfs get emo too (But why outside toilet??)

outside puppet ghost hse

me and jac makeover of shereen

Exit of the night safari

My er lao gong at RCCC...haha

GFS on the way out of night safari..

GFS get tired after clubbing

This man is damn freak...he will invite u to eat fake nose, fingers and real human being which is on his cart.

He is damn scary lor...but keli seems to love him..=x

The customer service counter ppl do get crazy too..=x

Shi Hsia and Keli at The Arena

GFs get crazy at clubs!!

I dance like mad!!!

BFF at The Arena

Way home...

2008-10-28T04:11:00.001+08:00

It's been like going to be 2 months ever since i update my blog..
Dead blog>>?
nah
i m jus too lazy

BUt i am back again...!!
=D

so much things had been happening these 2 mths...Just a short update what had happen.. working at Duty free shop at Airport..selling Jack Daniel..nice working environment...and of course drinking too..=p

working at banquet too..nt forgetting working at F1 as bar man..=)...3 days straight..sleep at hotel..nice...drinking again...=x...

family ?? i am trying to spend more time with my family as i realise i had not spend much time with them for a long time..6 months??really long...=(..

Dance?? no words to say..he always threw his temper on me when our dance crew up..i hate such feeling...it's been 6 mths 26 days for our partnership already..longest i say?? trying to hold on as much as i can to maintain tis partnership on. But hw long can i hold on.? i started to get tired.

" You are no longer committment unlike to the Batu Pahut com. I see no discipline in you anymore. You are still annoying to me just like before."

Do you know hw much this sentence hurts me? i have no committment in dancing?? althouugh i am dancing 3 times a week only, but i dances when i am in school, home. My result drop badly. i used to skip lesson to practise with you. i failed my exams. What more can i give for this partnership?? i need to work harder for my exams back. Yes i am learning ballroom now. I feel happy in it. It's like hw u started latin in S&G a year back. i jus want to learn someting when you are in NS. Am i wrong too? i just want this partnership to last. but i am feeling tired already. Hw long can i hold on??

Another gd news. I am going for SIA Air-stewdess interview on 23 nov. Wish me good luck. Hope i can get through. If i can get thru, i also means that's the end of my dancing life.=(..i really hate to choose 1 between things i love. early this year, Scouts or dance i choose dance.. den mid of this year, dance or sea sports? i chose dance again.. this time SIA or dance?? i don't know. really a hard decision. One is my dream while the other is the reason i am breathing.

Oh ya..Just to update EVERYONE out there!! i have offically change my name to
NICOLE ONG
in my nric. So no longer call Ya Da or Jessica . Hopefully new name, new life, new journey, better luck?? hope so.

=D

And yup..Night safari and clubbing this fri.=) together wif jac, sotong etc. it's been so long i went clubbing. cos i said i wun club till batu pahut com end of till nov. Yes, i keep my promise. so i am going to club tis fri till mad..=x..

watch 2 movies this week.
High school muscial 3.
It was awesome. 9/10. Highly recommanded.=)
watch 20 century boys just nw wif tiara and freeman. nt bad.
6/10
had dinner and guess who were saw? Rene.

Us at the top of vivocity

So tat's all till nw.
currently 4.10am.
I try to update every now and then.
Ciao~!

2008-10-24T01:53:00.009+08:00

Me and taz before gg to the competition venue

Faiz and pauline

Dex and weilin

Anita and me after com

singapore team

Taz and me before com

the 3 ladies

pauline and me

Taz anita me robby

Anita me

back to singapore

after com effect..haha

in the guys room

in the lift

loving couple

dinner and dance

selling costume??

flower for taz??

the water we drink during com..haha..isn't it big

redbulls

matthew and his partner wif me

shawn and gladys wif me and taz

us wif thai princess and her partner

the 2 couples

vitenam couple

malaysia couple

me wif robert

taz wif robert

taz and me a dinner and dance

Audrey caroline me

NP table

My teacher mario and me b4 heading down for dinner and dance

taz wif mario

our table

2008-08-26T00:54:00.000+08:00

Hey i am back from Batu Pahut!!!
Abit disappointed and unsatisfied with the result.Didn't get into the final. Only get into semi-final. But nevertheless i made alot of friends.

Was kinda sad and emo whenever i tinks tat i managed to get into semi-final only. I & Taz have to work harder . We will be back on the dancefloor soon.=)

This trip was fun.Although i and taz wasn't tat close. But i have to admit and accept something. Taz's character is open. So i am nt as jealous as i use to be.But seeing him crying on the cab tat evening, i felt useless, i can't help out much.But at the same time, how i wish time could stop there in the cab.With a raining environment, things was sad but sweet moments.I know he is disappointed tat we didn't make it into the final.We will make it far one day. Trust me.

I enjoy the trip in Batu Pahut with everyone, especially Taz.So nw waiting for our training program to be out then we will start preparing our next year thailand competition in April.

Taz going in NS in 2 weeks time too. I am going miss him. Don't know hw's is schuldue going to be like in NS too.Jus hoping everything will be fine.I wanna jus dance with Taz. It is just too sweet.I simply love the moments.

Today is 26 August 2008. First time i saw taz was on 26 August 2007 at Lion City at swissotel the stamford at stamford ballroom.Time flies fast. It's been a year i know him. It's jus like a dream. From a nobody to a fren nw to a dance partner.
I love it.~!

2008-08-21T01:14:00.005+08:00

Competition coming soon...
3 more days...
will be leaving on sat morning...
wish me gd luck okie..
i dun expect to win cause the competitiors seems to be quite strong..

Jus wanna enjoy the first dance together with Taz.

So many problems happening between us that i came to a point, i wanna stop dancing. but seeing Taz, i just wanna hold on no matter hw hard our partnership journey is. I hate what have been happening the past 4 mths plus partnership.

All the shits we are going throught but everything seems to be worth it. I never regret it.

He is going in Ns soon too. Dun noe when i am going to see hiim again and when's our next practise going to be. Dun noe so many things but i noe sth. I will miss him alot.realli so afraid what's our partnership going to be like after our competition and during his NS days.I dun wanna tink. I jus wanna enjoy my JB trip with him happily.

2008-08-13T10:48:00.003+08:00

Quarrels.arguement is all we have. I realli cherish our partnership. I am so afraid to lose him as a partner that i bear all the scolding. I noe it is my fault tat i went to search for another partner.But at the point of time, when i knew i will be nt able to continue dancing w/o u. i jus wan to find someone to sub you.I dun ask for more but jus to continue our partnership.tat's all i ask for nw.

WHY?WHY?WHY?

Costume is a big headache nw too.I can't wear my tat orange costume. Over revaling?? Isn't nicole costume the same design too? one is cloth. One is tussles? Why?a week to find costume is easy. but money is big problem?? argh...i hate my life nw la...
debts!!!
More debts!!!

11 more days to competition only.
27 more days to Taz NS enlistment.

2008-08-05T15:07:00.032+08:00

Ard 1pm before we enter sentosa

Tat's pauline and giovanni

Take 1

Take 2..Act cuting process

On tram

Gio is enjoying the tram

Tiara emo

Me & Faiz

Faiz and Tiara

Faiz and Tiara wif my hand..=x

Pauline enjoying the tram

So does Gio

Pic w/o pauline

Group pic

Silso

Childhood tgt wif tiara

Taz and faiz is enjoying

Acting stupid time

Taz tiara Me

Taz Faiz Pauline

Taz faiz gio

Tat's Faiz muscle

Chasing after they toss pauline into water

take 2

ANd taz is happi.Thumbs up

wrestling

whr's my frisbee?

Water boy?

tat's fun

chilling

Art work done by tiara

Faiz is proposing to tiara..OH MY GOD!!

E/A towel ok..

peeing against the tree

naked behind the towel?

Sexy italian teacher

tree huggers

pauline let's dance...

eah the cha cha drop

Our turn..take 1

take 2..rumba

wat are the guys doing??

gaying??Oh tis is wat they are doing..-.-||

lovely couple scene but was spoilt by faiz and taz

new costume?

taz can conside doing one.

he seems to love it alot.=x

latin gals

art by pauline

when we were on the way to 711

Taz took it When i am slping.

Emo tiara

Gio

loving couple

Gio again

Pauline and faiz

When partner gets tired

Taz u trying to kiss tiara??hw can u..=(

Promoting chips

Slping beauty

but evil taz draw tis

den tis..=x

loving couples all the time..=)

i was nt let go either even i am the partner..=x..drawn by taz

gio is slping too

Oh my God..weiling is forcing

wat's tis taz??=x

pauline and taz

emo me by pauline

singapore next top model?

Flat ass?

weilin and pauline

fats!!

singapore next top model too??

pauline and me

nice pic

wat's taz drawing??

naruto?

summoning frog??=x

latin finagers?

one is doing preparing for a fight..another is preparing for boxing??

nice pic

tis is nicer

shades peeps

trying to summon again..haiz..

o
pauline and gi

nice group pic

partners

again

before gg for skyride

gio me taz

couple stick to each other whereever they go

nice sunset

for gio to take back to italy

why pay money when we can use camera to take pic

sun is hurting her eyes

cam whor dex

us b4 entering to luge ride

gio is happy wif his ride..=)

Famil pic wif mummy regina

Yeah..basically in conclusion, SUNDAY was great.I had never enjoy it so much before. From the time we meet till we are apart. I went sentosa with my CFP leaders, SC, secondary friends. NONE of them i had enjoy so much before. Really.i didn't make it so whoo hah ok..Giovanni enjoy it too ba.

Had private lesson with him yesterday. double lesson. Before giovanni is leaving in 5 hours time from now back to Italy. I am going to miss him alot.

Back to me and taz. Most likely we will be continuing our partnership ba. Guess everything is enough for me. Remain as it is right now. 4 mths had been pass for our partnership. i wanna it to last. Costume is really giving a headache nw. Dun noe much will be going to cost. I have been skipping class to work to earn money for it. I know we might nt win but i wanna my first dance with u to be memorable.So that it will stay within me .

2008-08-03T02:28:00.000+08:00

hmm..i went to do some alteration for my costume on fri. With that i also did 1 glove, 1 chocker and 2 bangles. Looking forward for it.=)..Practise the whole day with taz. Giovanni is leaving already. So we decided to go sentosa which is later in the afternoon.

*right nw is 210am*.

going have fun ..woo.. it's been a long time i ever go to sentosa. So nice. Jus now a performance at Telok Blangka CC. It was fun. Had a last min cha cha dance with the MC. It was really a last min performance. They jus ask us to dance straight after our performance. Still nt bad ba. Managed to struggle through out. Hehe.Sry Taz i can't go for night practise today. I am really sorry. Pictures!!!

Group picture after performance

Nicholas & I trying to be funny..hehe..

Doing me and taz rumba routine. But w/o heels look kinda ugly.

That's rachel and youming

Below will be pics taken by 1 camera man at West mall.

The banner

This is one of the performance. They are so flexible.

That's all i am going to upload for today ba. more pics to come. Yeah.
=)
21 more days to malaysia Compeitition.
37 more days to Taz NS enlistment.
126 more my birthday.

2008-07-28T23:47:00.003+08:00

Hmm..west coast practise was really nice. Regina mummy and i was thr first. I talk to her what happen between me and Taz. Guess she can do nothing for me too. But i came to a point, i am really tired. Why can't i be myself. Why must i always make the sacrisife for guys. But looking at another angle, I should let go of Taz. I wanna see the happy go lucky Taz when he is dancing. I wan him to enjoy while dancing with me. But if i can't do it for him, i should let go. I can't be selfish and holding on to him. After all, we still can be frens rite...

Practise was fun.Regina mummy made Banana walnut cake and popiah for us. Yummy yummy ok..haha..hang around wif faiz, pauline, dex and weilin till 1130..

Today had practise too. Got coaching class in the morining and i din know about it lor. haiz.And guess what, i am approached to be the model for the national day catwalk..fun fun...

2008-07-25T12:42:00.002+08:00

Wow..I must admit Fiona Xie attracts alot of students. Almost double or thrice of Taufiq..hmm...And i am proud to say that my Student Council are efficient..they really did a good job in security...Well Done Student Council. Investiture coming too. What should we do for exco performance?? Any suggestion???hmm..but i gonna have a suprise for my exco on that day..=)..The last thing i can do for them.

Have been really going through a hard period now. I have to hold on.I dun wanna give up this. Let me answer the qns in my period entry.Am i nw dancing becos i love dancing or is it becos i love him? To admit, i am dancing becos i fall for him.
I saw him first time on 26 August 2007.it was first time seeing him. but it just attracted me.Also becos of Nicole costume. But on dec 29 on the com, when he was standing in front of me in the queue, i told my ex partner, yan boon, "how i wish he can be my partner".. 3 mths later he became my partner.It was a joy in my life. Eventually on 28 april, after 26 days we started partnering, i fall for him. I face alot of jealousy till today. I jus wanna dance on with him till old. I don't wanna give up. In fact i can say he is my first real partner. Yan boon and i partner becos both wanted to go com and was told to partner each other. I will try my very best to come out of my boundary
Bu yao qin ye fan qi,fou zhe dui bu qi zhi ji

30 More days to decide my destiny in my dance life. I wll put in my 102% for this partnership.
46 more days to Taz enlistment.
135 to my birthday.

2008-07-24T07:09:00.002+08:00

Was having ITE healthy lifestyle event ytd..it was fun...hosting the VIP, cam whoring wif my sc, eating( my habit as a president, hoho).it was fun!!! so long i had nv enjoy myself in SC already..since after my first year when i was so busy wif my dance..guess that's all i can do for my sc.

Noon time came Taufiq.Haiz.Girls and even guys was crazy over him. Maybe i am not the type tat is crazy over fans. Seeing my Sc enjoying playing the games make me realise i ought to do something for them. =)

End of event, counting the no. of cigarette that we collected. 3 days we collected close to 150 sticks. Well Done Student Council. Proud to see the effort u had made towards this event.
=)

After that headed to meet Taz and faiz. It was Faiz birthday..hoho..happy 22nd birthday to you Faiz. Slacking at starbucks till7+ before heading to suntec to meet their 2 dance frens from NP. Girl is taz first dance partner. Headed to fish & Co. pauline came later time. It was fun indeed.It seems to be kinda the first time clebration like this for a friend? Is this what friends do? Kinda love such feeling even thought i don't like so many people ard. But i still like this feeling. It is nice.

I gave Faiz the windmill i get from the event. It is nice.I love playing wind mill alot. it reminds me when i was in kidergarden, i used to make windmill alot. It is nice. One of the things that make me smile whenever i am down. i love it alot.

But i kinda become loner after that. And i hate it. I can't control it. Maybe i will go see the doctor one day.

Will update the pics taken during my sc event and faiz birthday......=)

31 More days to decide my destiny in my dance life. I wll put in my 101% for this partnership.
47 more days to Taz enlistment.
136 to my birthday. Will i have such celebration jus like Faiz?

2008-07-17T23:05:00.008+08:00

When Yong Quan ORD..shuai hor..=)

From tis we become frens.i cherish it alot..2 years back

My buddy, my listening ear, one who company to eat dinner and food ard s'pore
The day Yong Quan left to Australia on 4th July.. Gonna miss him alot
Back View of my new costume
Front View of my new costume

Bar in ITE Bishan??

(L-R) You Ming, Rachel, Me, Nicholas

After Queensway CC Performance

Lam-or us

YMCA ...

Stunts we wann try but failed..=x

It's me and phobe time to kiss

Kissing of Su & Nurul

7 latin gals..

New york

Cam-whoring is what we always do

Having fun during our practise..=)

The latin gals

2008-07-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps...i had jus removed my tag board due to one uneducated person to RCCC spaming it. And for the next few weeks i wun have the time to update anything. So sry. Busy with some things. So i will update asap.

Ciao~!

2008-06-23T22:36:00.002+08:00

Had dance practise at nite. Starte only at 745pm. ended at 835pm le.Haiz. 3 girls only. No guys at all. I have no mood to dance also. I miss him. Without his presence, i felt weird dancing alone.

This question came up to my mind today.
"Am i now dancing because i love dancing or am i dancing because of him"
I don't know. I really need to think carefully.

61 Days to August Competition
74 Days to Taz enlistment
167 Days to my birthday
Time is really passing fast.
=(

2008-06-22T23:20:00.001+08:00

Any way this entry is to thanks people who had been by my side for the past few weeks when i am really down especially when cyclone hit myanamr and my parents are in myanamar.

My church peeps:My spiritual mother huimin who has been praying for me for my parents who was in myanmar when cyclone happen. My ah pa weide also who had been praying for me. And not forgeting my cell sisters and brother. Thanks for been by my side for these period.

Simin & Kian seng: who had been consoling me when my parents are in myanamar too.

Violet: When i am having BGR problem and some personal problem, she will always be there to be my listening ear and give me suggestion. Although she have quit sch yet we still remain close friends.

My gfs nicole and michelle: Thanks for been there to cheer me up whenever i break down regardless of any problems i have. U gals nv fail to make me smile.

Working peeps: Some of the team leaders who knows what happen to my parents, had really treated me very nice and understanding.Sotong, geokling, jacequline, doreen kenny who really show me the concerns. I really appreaciate it alot. The auntys too!!! they really concern me alot. Asking me whenever i work how's my parents are and how i am doing and giving me suggestions.Zhen Shun too.Tag only after 1 month plus but he still give the concern. Thx dude.

Jospephine(dance fren): Thank gal for been really by my side to cheer me up and all those advice u gave me. Especially my dance life and my relationship problem. I really cherish this friendship we had together. Exams coming for us so let's work hard together.

Taz: Although we are not very close but yet u console me during that cyclone period. Been a really understanding pathner and i really cherish it alot. Thanks boy.

hmm..and many more..when i can think who to thanks already, i will pin it down again.

Time is running fast

2008-06-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

hmm..Guess now i am in a big debt again. Bought my costume from Aunty belinda. Nice. Pink.=x. Cost me a few hundred busck. Everyone knows that i hate pink to core. But i don't know why i still choose to buy. But i kinda like the design. Have to start learning how to play wif the tail at the side. =)

Will updates the pics real soon. Cause my baby came back not long for the repair service and i had just reformated it only. So it need a little bit of time to transfer everything back. Yeah.

Have been really broke these days. No work for me at banquet. haiz. But it is also a good thing. I eat very less these days. And i am proud to say i have lose 7 kg within a mth.=D.

Kinda hurt my right ankle and big toe on yesterday practise. Hope it wouldn't hurt me so much futher. I would rather injured myself then seeing Taz injured. I really don't wan to hurt it futher. I want the best for me and Taz for the competition.i wants to get into the final. I swear i will do my 110% best for the next 2 mths.Everything i do is worth it.

Was working yesterday at banquet. Wedding lunch. The couple is so sweet and the wedding is so perfect. A christian couple. Singing worship songs too. I felt so touched and i even cried when i sings. GOD touch my heart. And the couple is rich ok. They are having dinner wedding at night too. Everyone have their dream partner and wedding style. I had mine too. I don't mind sharing.
"i wants a wedding to be pruple as the main colour and design to be dance related. With a dancefloor. My dream mate to be a dancer like me. Have total 3 march in. 3rd one is to perform a short latin or ballroom performance. I hope my dance friends to come up wif a performances too. I wanna sing a song together that bring back me and my dream mate memories too.My wedding gift to be a couple bear that wears our favourite dance costume.And i wanna take many photos that lane down the memories that we had together from the day we met and made into an album. And of course i hope he can proposed to me during a dance competition.=D"

62 more days to August Competition.
75 days to Taz NS enlistment.
168 days to my birthday.
=(
Time really running fast.
Cherish every moment i have now.

67 more days

2008-06-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

12 days ever since i've posted any entries already.As usual busy with dance. Finish my rumba routine already so started polishing steps with gladys right nw. Busy busy. It means real training starts. All the way till August competition.

CONCERNTRATE JESSICA ONG!!
JIAYOU for the competition with Taz.
Win something back.
=)

Still looking for costume design.haiz. How should i portrait myself on the dancefloor? Arrogant?? classic? Cheeky? Wild? Soft? i kinda like the idea of chicky + classic + soft. So what kind of costume and colour should i do? any comments?

So many things happening right now yet so little time. Student council camp is next week yet i can't go too. Starting my private school. First day i really can't miss the class.

Was looking through photos about my rovering and scouting life. Kinda miss it.Especially in Taiwan with Taiwan and Hong Kong Rovers. Memories will stay deep in my heart. But i wouldn't regret the decision of choosing dance over scouts. I wants to do something i enjoy. I gave up alot of things because of dance. So i will cherish it more. I quitted smoking because of dance too.Stamina in dancing was really sux when i still smoking. Now will be much better. Gym and swimming often right nw. Training on my legs muscles right nw.

Taz injured his knee and ankle!!!
So worried for him.
It's like so badly effecting him when we are dancing.
Haiz.
Luckily we are not taking part in June competition.
I can't imagine what will happen.

Count Down
67 more days to August competition~!

Will be uploading many pics soon~!
waiting for my baby lappy to come back from repair
=)

2008-06-06T11:23:00.004+08:00

hmm..
last paper today...wee
Business computing..But access is hard sia..argh..try my best later. And soon the class is separating . Most of them are graduating. Tonight there will be a party . But i am not going. Can save up tat money to pay for my lessons or debts. CONTROL!!!! no clubbing for me till december. At least after my August competition.

And guess what i got my rumba routine on wed. And i loves it alot.But there's alot of work to work on it.=) I love it more than my cha cha. I love Rumba the most but i hate it the most too. The dance of love. I really don't dare to look into Taz eyes. I will get hurt. It is really nice dancing rumba wif Taz. Yet some things are jus too confusing and hurting for me after what i have hear last sun. KL competition coming and i am getting stress too. i am not worried about my rumba but my cha cha i am worried. nvm we got 2 months to work on.=) Expression!!!! And i might be buying a costume from Raine .Euro 300!!! Trying out tis sat.=).I see hw it looks ba

2008-06-02T23:46:00.003+08:00

Hmm...Exams is tmr!!!

1st paper (3 june)- Facilities and Accommodation Operations
2nd paper (4 june)- The Tourism Industry
3rd paper (5 june)- The global Hospitality Industry
4th paper (6 june)- Business Computing

Hoho...having a short break for myself before i continue study. Aiming for a distinction for my FAO & Business Computing.Hopefully credit for my other 2 modules.=D

Soon next year march i will be graduating for my higher nitec and my private diploma. So where am i going next? Perhaps i might be studying part time Advance Diploma and part time in diploma in psychology ba. Advance dipolma i am not so worry about paying. Sister can help me abit and dad & mum can help me pay. My diploma in psychlogy, i have to pay myself. i have check out the cost and school already, so wouldn't be much a problem for me. So have to work harder. As in working part time. Qualification is like so important in tis society right now. Haiz. UPGRADE MYSELF..

And not forgetting my dance..=)..although have some hiccups between me and Taz. But yet i am holding on. Today i can't concentrate on my samba so much due to what i had heard on sun from Faz and because of my exams tommorrow. STRESS!!! i wanna score distinctions..i wanna make my parents proud...=D..Rumba class starting this wed..looking forward for it..=D

Yuppy..i paid some of my debts .left only skipper than finish le. Gonna spend all on my dance.

-I am afraid to get hurt or hurt others
I am afraid to get jealous or get jealous of others
Do you know that?

2008-05-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

hmm..it's been so long ever since i online or update my blog.My laptop wireless card was spoilted.Haiz.

Oh gosh.Never check mails for about a week and when i opened it, it was flooded.
hmm...life was still good. Kinda busy with my attachment these days. Doing 1 star kayaking course for Angelican High NPCC girls and BB. Was fun yet i had sun burn on my face which is like pimples or even look like skin disease??hmm..

Recently jus finish Dragonboating for GongShan Pri sch for the entire PSLE students..which is 380 students...=O...Was fun with the kids.The kIds was like overgrown?? or am i undergrown?? hmm..

managed to catch some movie to chill out myself. Indiana Jones. Was really funny. Poor Yong Quan who was been "beated" by me during the show.=x..But it was really funny and a good show. 9/10.. Highly recommanded.

Next to my dance life.And i am proud to say i have finish my cha cha routine~!! love it man. Rumba to come. And i loves my new dance shoe but it pain like what ...cool right~!Taz had graduated too..hmm.which means competition coming up le. August 23 in KL. Think i will finish my rumba routine around end of June or 1st week of july. the rest of the 1 month we gonna touch up our steps and flirtation with each other. Love it man.And taz had jus rebonded~! Nice, cool , rocks on Taz. But i jus cut my hair again.=(..Me and Taz leh?? getting better.=). i jus simply loves the way we are now and no more.Dancing with feelings.One is an extrovert while the other one is an introvert.It's good to be different together to keep the peace.=)

Work.Sometimes people at work can be nice and terrible.Hypocrites are everywhere. So BEWARE~! All i know is work properly, earn money, get money and BYE. Clear cut.Shh....=x...no more says..if not can ended up nasty.

Hmm..I have been stop using singlish in my entries.That's to train myself in english. Isn't it better?

Found in a website.Enjoy~!
Sometimes in life, you find a special person;
Someone who changes your life
just by being part of it.
Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop;
Someone who makes you believe
that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you
that there really is an unlocked door
just waiting for you to open it.