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Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the dancefloor,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy practising,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?

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Thursday, August 23, 2007; 3:30 PM

8 years of struggles

Sun was another day for me..at home doing projects whole day..i realli hate tis year..so many projects...mon another day at sch..as usual ba..nth special..go training at swissotel lor..fun..=)..tue another day..went to take pay after sch..saw doreen..after that went for shopping at far east...=x...i bought 4 pair of coloured contact lenses...=)..2 pair of shoe..1 necklace..tat's all ba..=).. seems like i and doreen had the same taste in things..gonna have a shopping spree soon...=).. have been sleeping veri early these 2 days ba..to get back enough slp form the past 2 weeks lor..liddat den can tarhan for the next 2 weeks again....

wed..bad day...realli bad day...morning go do projects..meet at 830 but i was late..=x..i hardy late de ok..stupid bus and rain...jam on highway...haiz..glad to see violet came too..=)..done the project den went for ISS..watch video...den have PIE..watch movie..=x..seems like i enjoying life hor..=x..den went to ICA to take the citizenship form..den went to causeway point.. bought movie ticket to watch..881...den go library return books...was early so went to browse ard books..see gt anything useful for my projects..but was abit tired so went home first..

was a disaster at home..my cousin came from myanmar le..staying at my hse...in my room but here i was "kicked" out of my room..although is my bro room la..is where i do my projects cos the com there is better..changed and headed to causeway point..damn frustated..all my eyes was tears..which recall me back wat happen 8 years back..8 years...i nv have a complete family till nw.. becos of my sis incident..my life had changed..from good to bad..bad to good but to worse nw..i tried my best to 4get the incident and my hatred le..but whenever such things happen it recall me back of my past..tot after i noe jiaqi my life had changed better alot..and even tot i fially able to let go of my past..but i was proved wrong..everything was jus a dream for me.. gg for counselling sessions during my olevels period was more tougher for me to struggle thru.. i run away from the counselling sessions..hurting myself..and even tot death...eventually i am still getting hurt and pain within me...the love and concern i need was a dust,a dream..yet i still managed to struggle the year..2007 wasn't a gd year for me..tot pastor khong sae is a victory year ??but it seems doesn't apply on me..tot if i choose to stay in singapore and study ITE i will have a change for a new environment but with the same friends but i was wrong again..i should have left to Australia.. i din tok much in sch so as i dun wish wat had happen in sec sch to happen here again..but i was wrong..toking much with my project mate which can cause me any friendship lost again..Shut up is the best...i had lost 2 close frens of mine already...i can nv take another blow again if i have to lose another friendsship...This is how i get the habit of doing most things alone.. transfering over to sports management was a wrong move ba..i shouldn't sacrified so much...what's over is over..i dun wanna tok abt it.. But how abt my suffering right nw... i initiative in doing things in order to find a place whr i can belong to and feel the love and care again..but i owas failed... i am simply KO... i give up..i dun noe if i can still continue wat i am doing now anot.. i am simply breaking down..at least writing blog makes me let out my feeling..crying alone at nite..puching the wall ..biting myself..all doesn't seems to work..tell me wat can i do...

All i wan is a complete happy family. Nothing much.. i jus wan the concern & love from ppl..is it so hard for me...?tell me...someone pls tell me...

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