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Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the dancefloor,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy practising,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?

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Friday, February 29, 2008; 4:40 PM

bAd dAy~!

Thursday, February 28, 2008; 5:56 PM

Went for airshow on sun...tot can see fandi over there..but jasper call and say mah fandi not working..tot he can be posted back to do OC.=(..but quite an exciting show thru...went back early evening....

sch realli sux these days..tue went to settle my private uni stuff..cos got some problem..end up settle..pay fees le..=)..soon i will be busy ba..below is my sechuldue lor..busy up myself..

mon: day time study at ite..night time dance lesson at shawn & gladys
tue: day time study at ite..night time at raffles academy..
wed..day time study at ite..evening time dance lesson at bishan..
thur: day time study at ite..night night at raffles academy
fri: day time study at ite..night time at raffles academy
sat : work whole day..haha
sun: maybe work half day..night study for ite and raffles academy..

See my life is realli full sechuldue le..will i be able to take it? i dun noe..

quarreling wif my bf everyday.. nv had a day nv quarrel b4..but tonight wat a special nite..=)..i webcam wif him..=)..maybe tis is enough for me..cos loving someone doesn't mean must have him..see him have the happiness is good enough..=)..

Sunday, February 24, 2008; 6:30 PM

Regreted of wat i have done

hmm...went to NTUC insurance company wif mum on wed in the morning to loan money for my Private uni..=)..and i am starting sch soon...another journey in my life begins...den went to meet yong quan for lunch at far east plaza..den acc him go cut hair den went for dance..i simply love dancing..the feeling of relaxation was cool...4getting all bad memories and jus focus into the feel of dance...it's simply wonderful...den for my PPCDL..totally hack care le..den meet up wif yong quan for dinner at IMM..Hong Kong food..it was nice..=)..7.5/10 ba...

thurs hosted MM Lee Kuan Yew at my school..preparation ws done since morning le...realli excited abt it..den had tea reception with him..=)..great..my idol.my role model...feeling was great seeing and his wife personally communication with him..marcus chia, my 2nd president of SC was under his LKY scholarship had the chance to personally chat with him. A great man whom everyone look forwards to...den rush down for NRC meeting..

fri i woke up late man...but still manged to take first bus..help out in graduation day..ended at 12 le den rush down to RELC international hotel for the forum wif minister..was kinda aboring session ba..ended late..ard 7..was late for the founder's day dinner le..so din go..so went to meet yong quan again for dinner...haha..seems like seeing him too many times tis week le..who ask him gt 2 week MC...gg off thailand a mth for 8teck??? dun noe hw to spell la..went to eat Hong Kong food again..was nice too..but rate 6.5/10 onli ba...den went to find tristan to pass his PSP and the hooters vouchers..anw happy Founder's day and thinking day ..but sad to say i quit my scout unit on this day..becos of scout i lose my loves one le..becos of my unit, i realise hw ppl works in a backstabbing way ..becos of staying in scouts, i noe the real meaning of scouts..hyprocrites...so tis time i choose to realli leave scouts 4ever for good...NRC will be next on list ba...

so many things had happen these days..and i have been thinking alot...ok..i offically announced tat i got bf ok..A inmate,divorced muslim man who is 32 years old wif a kid working as a chef jus below my workplace...i noe alot of ppl will disapprove tis but let me put in tis way.. age gaps doesn't matter..bad past doesn't mean anything..wat matter is he loves me..tat's it...FULL STOP..now all i have in mind is to quickly grad from ITE next year march..focus on my private uni..get my degree within 2 1/2 years time..join airline..take up dipolma in pyschology after my private uni as part time..den if possible money situation ok or wat..pursure my real dream..dipolma in dance..tat's wat i realli want to do in my life.be a dancer..get married when the right man propose to me..and the most 2 impt thing is to get a better health which the current situation is bad..and i can jus console myself tat i am well...and to have complete family..realli envy ppl with happy complete family.. while my love life...let things goes naturally ba..i noe i stil can't let go of fandi..but i believe down 5 years down the road i can 4get him ...i give myself 3-5 years...i noe it sound unfair to my bf..but i hope he understand...this relationship wif fandi is not a easy way as jiaqi le..i was not wif jiaqi but i was tgt wif fandi..memories stay deep in my heart..and pain is all i get.. i mus be strong at this time..all i can blame is my petty and bad attitude..if i were to choose fandi and my current bf..i still choose fandi..the first guy tat every make me in love badly wif him and feel he's my everything..someone who i wan to share burden wif him..even getting slap again from mum becos he is a muslim is still worth it..cos he's taught me to cherish ppl tat i love b4 it's too late...i regreted..

Going airshow tmr..cos i wanted to see fandi..bought tickets le...but he was told to work at function office tmr..=(..aiyo why so mani fandi things..should write more abt my bf mah..bla bla bla...=x..miss my bf andri

Labels: if i were given a chance..i will still choose fandi..