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Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the dancefloor,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy practising,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?

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Saturday, February 9, 2008; 3:00 PM

yo..back to sch..in sleepy mood..haha..sch was bored...tired and restless...went to take pay..fandi was giving out...=)..=(...=?...den went to PS..den headed back home..letter came..sch accepted..soon i leaving...

6 feb..
slept till 12nn sia..woke up late..went to chinatown to meet skipper, binglun and simin for shopping..haha..bought back goodies..headed home to eat dinner..family of 4..but not 5..is tis call a reunion dinner?? i hate it..10 years...it was all ur fault i suffer..can't u come to singapore make dun make my life miserable anymore??went out to meet michelle and the gang..for a drink..stayed till 2am liddat..went back home..sleep..haha...

7 feb & 8 feb
had work..7am..got geok leng..hehe..usher as usual lor..den 4pm gt work oso..but work till 1130 onli..cos working the next day 7am..but i din went home..went for drinking again..tis time wif desmond and his gf and xiao qiang...guess i have been drinking almost everyday..went back home awhile to take the present i buy for fandi...off to work..boring..work till3pm onli..coughing badly..den went to 3rd floor visit my shifus..they remember me..wee...den geok leng went home..while i walk to esplanade..whr i celebrate my bday..nt much to say...it hurts...stay till 7pm den home sweet home lor..

Wednesday, February 6, 2008; 1:49 AM

Back from Taiwan..here for updates..not not pics..cos gt 1000++..haha

28 Jan
Left hse at 10..david and kennth was there le..early..went in 12+..lonely journey..called fandi but he still refuse to pick up..reach taipei at 6+..gt a lady name xiao ma..we call her pony..waited for malaysian scouts..den came another lady..Ariel..headed to dormarity..weather was damn cold..1 hour journey to the University..put things down..changed..and off to the night market..hoho..we eat alot..nice..but weather cold..was 13 degree..gt smoke..haha..i and david was trying to puff the smoke out..haha..=x..went back uni at ard 12+..slp..alone..=x...

29 Jan
woke up at 8 am den change and get ready for conference..meet Hong Kong scouts..eric, commissioner..Ringo, HQ scouter..den we registar den went in to the conference room...everything chinese sia..i dun noe hw to read..=(...david and kenneth my translater..but both oso dun realli noe..haha..Lunch was nt bad...took pics wif taiwan chief scouts..rovers..haha..fun...den having meeting till night 9pm..den i went to airport wif pony to fetch tian han..back to dorm..slept at 2am plus..hot water available from 5pm to 2am onli sia..but heng i managed to bath..

30 Jan
as usual..but we left the university at 10am den headed to the national museum..felt so "high class" and guilty too..cos we are foreign delegates so we took ariel's car while the rest walk in rain..=x..look ard..bleah...done..took the public transport bus and mrt to the taipei 101 nearby..we renew our scout promise..in chinese by airel and eng by arvin..den went to taipei 101 to view the scenery but was crowded so headed for dinner..dinner was pretty fine..but ate till 830 den left le..i present the singapore land scarf to the mayor..=)..den headed to the taipei 101 wif david and kenneth...was kinda romantic to walk in the rain wif my commissioner..haha..but too bad he belong to erm....=x..but at thetop of 98 storey i can't view anything lor..cos the weather was pretty cold so can't see anything..it was onli 9 degree onli..so went back down. den waited for tian han den headed to shilin market..hoho..i went shopping abit..bought a bag and legging for my dance..den went back at 12+..went to eat too..saw singapore commandos..hoho..

31 Jan
morning presented our rovering in singapore..hehe..=)...as usual..i do the photographing..pretty boring whole day ba...went taiwan HQ..bought alot of stuff..hehe...yawnz*..cos sprain my ankle..=(..was having fever oso..and cough..guess my cough is like every since i started smoking again ba..

1 Feb
hoho..tonight was the night...so the guys can change in their suit..they have the shuai qi look..realli..especially david..cos he has been acting cute all the while..kenneth look cool too..he showing the seriousness face all the while..tian han?? as usual..the shuai panda..den me leh..wear a dress. the black dress wif white ribbon when i attended the OCS dinner lor..haha..pretty loves tat dress..den at 7+ start the dinner and dance..in the assembly area..=x..was damn cold lor..but i still managed to took my warmer away..haha..took pics alot.i do look gorgeous ok..got a queue to take pic wif me ook..although i am abit tomboy..=p..we were given a card each..so we had to find a partner to dance.learn ballroom..hoho..loves it man..i learn it fast..kelian de david..a funni long story la..haha...i found my dance partner too..initally i doesn't wan to find..but tat organiser took my card and go search.but was pretty sweet too la..cos he knee down and we took pics...=x..den was playing..den have Mr and Ms scout..heng i managed to deleted my name away last min...the taiwan ppl sarbo me..wahhaha...den had dance..jus like hw taiwanese does in the shows..learn alot of new stuff...pull david in to dance..as usual he is the onli one i can communicate wif for the whole conference...haha..guess he had fun too..wahaha..i took pic wif the guy..haha..one of the organiser oso ba..he look damn gentleman ba..but kinda old..=x...opps..guess i flirt?? nah..i am faithful to Dar ok...went back at 11+..bath den do report le..=x..force to do my library for HQ..i drank taiwan beer..haha...slept at 330am...

2 Feb
last day of conference..sad..have to leave everyone le..have breakfast..took luggage down..have a short conference..den ended at 3+..took pics..exchange namecard and scarf..hehe..i miss everyone..muacks..den waited to leave the uni and stay at hotel..took cab thr...stayed at rainbow hotel...4 in a room..was quite spacious ba...located in the middle of shooping center area..haha..den bath den go eat dinner..haha..dinner was cheap..cost me S$1 onli..haha...den went ard walk..again in the rain..haha..den went to another area...whr the club is..cos ariel bringing us to clubbing..taipei most famous clubbing wif ariel and HK scout,eric..ringo din came..Luxy..cost me S$30 ba..as usual david pay first cos i haven change money yet..was kinda early so nt much ppl..the alochol was like !@#$% lor..i order vodka wif orange..i was like drinking orange juice onli lor..den order heineken..i am gd in drinking ok..tilll...i drink flaming ferrari..=x..share wif tian han..tink he oso KO ..my head was buring after tat lor..started feel guiddy..i wanted to 4get fandi..so all i can do is to drink and smoke..drink and smoke...den david suggested to go dance..it was den when i KO le..i dancing like mad..guess tat time show the real colour or me ba..=x..i was mad ...i done 3 things wrong..i kiss a gal who is on drug..i dance "exotic dance" wif the DJ..and i dance wif a ang mo guy..gosh...i feel disgust man..all i can remember is here le..the rest is told by david they all..david pull me away ard 2+..i was KO totally arld..ariel try to support me but she is a lady..so david carry me lor..was creating a scene at the below..but i drink vomit ok..=x..den came the malaysian scouts wif pony..den david carry me back to hotel lor..ariel follow to change for me..=)..din i slept soundly till morning..=x..guess i realli make myself a name in taiwan rovers ba..=x..

3feb..
woke up onli at 10..head still giddy..3 of them look at me like erm...u should noe..den bath change..go ard visiting interest places..den at 7+ meet ariel to have dinner wif the commissioner..they all knew the story abt me..=x..especiall tat ringo come ask me if i can still take it..haha..of course i can..round 2...=x..tis time drank taiwan beer onli..pony keep pouring for me so i can't refuse mah..hehe..so i drank..not much la..5 glass onli...david stop me at 3 glass le..but i secretly drink..wahahha..=x..i am totally nt drunk lor..is tat faming ferrari lor..den took pony's car to the fisherman village..was ard 11 when we reach..so all the shop closes le..took back to the Luxy..but nt club le..den came xin jie and lin jie and eric..david give me green light if they still gg clubbing..hehe..but have to stick to xin jie..why are guys owas treating me as substitute de..i hate it..den went to drink milk tea..erm...i was bored so i jus slack ard..den went out smoke..although the cafe inside can smoke la..den at 2am everyone was tired cos the malaysian scout flight was 8am ..i managed to click wif eric, taiwan rover..cos he smoke too..haha..1 cig pkt onli cos sin less than 3 ok..airport cheaper..haha..so i bought a few pkt back..guess i started smoing heavily after boke up wif fandi ba.get scolded by david when he caught me smoking..tat fierce face realli scary me..i ask myself all the sudden..am i still the jessica??..went back ..bath slp..

4th feb
woke up 8.had breakfast..pack luggage and put it at the lobby cos we were checking out..went to another museum...den go back ximen whr we stay to do last min shopping.. xin jie, lin jie and 2 more rovers came...they went ard eating so i jus left to do my own shopping...bought presents..made a keychain tat draw a cartoon face of fandi...bought a few other stuff too..bought aru his birthday present too...bought some key chains...leggin and boots..i loves my boots...wee...den meet back at 3pm lor..den airel came to fetch us...miss them alot..off we left taiwan back to singapore....

was tinking alot on board..i recall back wat had happen 10 years back..chinese new year is coming..is my family reunion mah?? the wound is there nw and 4ever..no one ever noes the story but myself..a worst suffer tat a child can ever have..i am onli 20 tis year..tis happen to me..everyone tink tis is my attitude ..myself..but i am not..i suffer ..i have enough...wonder hw i been thru these years?? ask me and i tell...

arrived at airport..i called..i made up my mind..once bitten twice shy...=x..reach home 1am+ close to 2am..bath unpacked..it's 4+ le..slepy an hour..and off i go to sch le..sleepy mood..haiz..

will update the pics i took in taiwan soon..cos david will be buring into a cd..