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Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the dancefloor,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy practising,

And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?

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Wednesday, August 8, 2007; 2:30 PM

Struggles

Supposing doesn't wan to update de but kinda feel like updating and here i am...Mon morning went to meet serene and joseph and Qi...do our project ba..had a fruitful day ba..done quite alo of reaserch...was tiring thru cos b4 the night was doing some projects ba...so i would like fall asleep at time ba...everything ended at 7..on my way home Liting..took pic wif her ...

Tue as today morning go sch..pathetic lor..9 total onli..had bfd..slack...do project rigel ppt den had OFA lesson..trying hard to understand Access ba..tired is all i noe..den went library to do my rigel ppt again..den at 3 went SC room..took a nap lor..at 5 gt meeting..secretary and national day crowd control meeting lor..at 615 meet andrey...headed down to bugis to eat dinner den rushed down to national library to have camp ahoy 2nd meeting..managed to hold the meeting myself..first time..Good Job for myself!...=x...ended at 9 den went back home...online rush rigel ppt again lor..took a break by writing blog..

so many things happening and i dun noe hw far and hw long can i take it...ever since the hse warming i tried to stay away from huini and Qi..it realli hurts to see myself looking at things i doesn't wan yet i can't resist myself to noe hw is he doing..even been the fren from far it's hurting me..worse still end of the year when Qi come back scout troop..hw am i going to pull myself up..i realli regreted for not going to australia wif Myat..at least a new environment..=x..so many regrets in my life..zixuan ask for patch out of the blue..actutally nt out of the blue ..he asking out for a few times..jus tat i am not free..wat to do...busy woman...he's even willing to start everything from the scratch.. even i doesn't have much time for him due to scout..cos he will be busy wif his work at air force oso...But.....All i sae is i need time to 4get things i should be 4getting by nw..but will i be able to do it?? i am not sure... 2 yr 6mths..it is nt too long not too short period..but the struggle i had gone thru is things i can't able to take it once again..first time i suffer so much especially in 2007...Should i give zixuan a chance? a chance myself to get over?? i tried it b4 during the 2 years but i failed 3 times... i doesn't wan hurt anyone or myself again...Kok weng oso asking for patch..especially he's nw in hospital right nw due to arm dislocated..i tried to ignore as much as i can...haiz..why am i having so much problems at one go..tis week is like a struggle for me le...struggling wif project rigel..camp ahoy..ISS project..and nw tis...haiz..my church wasn't nice too..struggling oso wif ah pa stuff..cos i realli miss ah pa alot..how i wish he will be here to pray for me...haiz...why why why...

Huini: If u see tis, i am sry to sae sry again..Sincerely sry..jus take to words i sae in here as rubbish..cos i noe for sure Qi will come see and write comments which i dun wann see...

Monday, August 6, 2007; 12:56 AM

Things to do for this week..
Mon -Do ISS project ( Must do finish half of the project)
Tue - Do Presentation for Project Rigel den send to Yan hao for vetting, camp ahoy committee meeting
Wed - Edit the presentation den send to Sarah for vetting
Thurs -Rover quarterdeck minutes,do design of the flyers
Fri -Working day and revising for ISS
Sat -Nrac meeting(presentation of Project Rigel

Guess i will not be updating my blog till next week ends le...cos due to projects, proposals and everthing i wun be free anymore so jus gonna update wat happen these days ba...

Fri i had the communitty fiesta on tat day..was kinda a pretty fun day for me...morning woke up late rush down sch but was early..get changed den prepare for duty..my parner was Jian Wei...do the tours with the sch like east view sec...Yuying sec and yio chu kang sec...the tuours route we bring are the nursing area...ITE-SUN...Industrial Automation Center and Human Performance Lab...was fun the whole day..end at 430...so rush down to RC for Quarterdeck meeting...was pretty a fruitful meeting...ended at ard 930..continue Project Rigel meeting till 1045..went back early with Andrey...den sat morning i tried to force myself out of bed..still managed to reach boonlay at 620am...den had the NDP observance..ended at 9+ le..went to Gek Pok mac for tok cock session den ard 12+ headed down to sch wif andrey lor...to find udrena and doing camp ahoy lor..den ard 4 went to PS wif andrey..he meeting his fren while i having project rigel meeting...guess is pretty a terrible and gd day for me??? terrible is i waited in the hot sun wif my full uni and jacket on and a scolding from Aru indirectly...gd things is aru treated us dinner at Swensens which cost him $165 in total...=x...ended again ard 9+...go home DEAD....

Sun leh..which is day...is oso a gd and bad day for me...morning meet benedict for lunch and headed down to service wif him and fei fei...reach church saw ah gong and chee aik..tok to me abt joining back my cell...but i din oso la..valerie saw me but din tell huimin..tink i am still not ready for service...chee aik prayed for me...during the worship i cried too...at the song" at the cross" i felt even more confuse..i noe i have to continue my christian life even without ah pa but i couldn't... till nw i am still relying on him...today was the first sunday so we had LORD's supper...but i din take...cos i tink since i am not ready for a real back to service i wun take the LORD's supper....chee aik came to sit beside me during the service...he tried veri hard to talk to me but i din response back...When can ah pa be back for service...i miss him alot...and i need him to be back for cell group...teaching me hw to play guitar..watching movies at his hse...i need ah pa back into my christian life...haiz...left service at 330 den went down to National library at bugis...went to Han's.den came skipper and yau teck..followed by andrey den jeremy...formed the commiittee and the other stuffs..almost everything nice nice lor...to follow up le lor..den went library cos the laptop no more batt le...den came kian send sir...stayed at there till 9pm lor...went for dinner at nearby..had fun toking...while at the same time get scolding by sarah abt the project rigel..haiz..den headed back home...